Wednesday, July 30, 2008

the poetry in meÜand the b*tchiness..

my cousin asked me the other night to make him a five-line poem about sun--an English homework..i wasn't at my poetic mood that time but left with no choice, i hurriedly squeezed my maniac brains of its poetic juices even if there isn't any--that time and ever since..
i scanned some teacher's magazines hoping to stumble upon some works that would give me the slightest ideas..i also reread some harry potter books hoping that some installments may have included dumbledore giving harry some opinionated facts about father sun..but to my concluded disappointments--there wasn't any..
so, i freely let my mind drift to the sky and thought of anything about the sun that could be jotted down--there is a lot of course but phrasing it and making it sound as a poem is the difficult part..

after some time of thinking, i came at last to my latest masterpiece.


your brightness as you rise offers warmth and laughter

not just for me but for everything else that matters

and the happiness doesn't end as you set,

rather, promises a better tomorrow as we rest.

sun, dear sun, you're one wonderful gift to everyone.

...its basically everything but art and poetic..lolz..
i wonder if my cousin passed it on...
i'm no good in writing poems and never dreamed of being a poet..i could be a novelist and a writer but never that stuff..


---been here--crushed to pieces--but who says you would never be complete again..

"in every girl with a broken heart, there's always a boy with a glue gun"

--the bullshit(forgive my bad mouth)thing would be when someone still wants you to feel you're being a loser..
>>>and so to you!!!
you're the're still the damn can't even stand a profile view..i'm into someone's arms and yet you're still at his shadow..pity, he's not the type to be stalked at and you're not the type to be turned back to..i wish you the happiness..lolz!!Ü


i'm doing a research paper on Philippine Alternative and Renewable Energy Laws..and i'm kinda having a hard time on it..since i've been out of school for months now and my present job doesn't tackle on energy, i couldn't think of anything to add to this..the search engines are also bit of conservative and don't give me exactly what i friends are buzzing me at ym..

lotsa stuffs to finish..and almost time to bed..

lotsa love..


Monday, July 28, 2008

silent rants

...i don't feel like blogging right now-- i mean in words..
i just want to post something in here..

>>>to my fellows..

>>>to raveen

>>>and to you C. A. G.
i hope you'll get the nerves..

lotsa love♥♥♥

Saturday, July 26, 2008

back to basics

i tried to work on with my layout but sad to say i was unsuccessful--
it was grossed..
i don't know how to download the skins.. i thought just like friendster, you'll just have to copy and paste it..but then again and again i was wrong..i failed and all the entries and the chu-chus i've put in their was lost..i almost panicked..good thing i was able to revert the template to classic..

and the best thing--
thanks a million to esther--
you're one hit of a friend..

i wish i've got Einstein's brains when it comes to html and java and the likes..i really envy those with great layouts..

but well, nothing beats classic and nothing is lovelier than being simple..

and why do i have to want something i am not bound to afford..

someday, im gonna learn that thing and i'm gonna have the best layout in the world..

enough said!!

p.s. i'm spending my night here at the bank.. gotta go..

lotsa luv!!

still in random

it was nyzelle who started the fun..i woke up a little late this morning..though my mind was clattered with the idea that the office would be opening at 8 like regular days, i found it hard to wake up when i woke up i found messages in my phone--from my fanatic(u knw who u are) and from nyz..we started that text parade during our college days--to briefly undrestand it--we're texting the whole group with just one create it was long and it was fun..we updated ourselves with new and old goodies about was quite relax with nyz because she was the only one without something to be busied about that particular moment--me on the other hand, busied myself with the bank's a.k.a office transactions, ella with her rationalization review(i hope i got that right) she with dave, angela still overwhelmed with her being a new registered nurse..and esther with her dreams(she sleeps at day coz she can't at night coz of work)..i wasn't able to join in the fun step by step but i had fun reading the messages..

i found it monsterous when i opened this account around 2pm this background shouted "bandwidth exceeded" at my layout is so gross..i am the only one working with html of this account and im not and adept to it..blogger skins need to be downloaded and i have no definite time to search and download skins as i am busy and undecided right now..i envy some blogs..*sigh.. i am searching photobucket for some good backgrounds so if you happen to find my site messy, my apologies for that's the only one i can afford at the moment..

i'm still at the bank though we've closed early today..we need to keep the books updated because the head office's gonna check them this monday..

i was thinking of getting married--yeah i wanna get married just beacuse i am missing someone terribly..i know it isn't a good option to a solution but mind me, it's hard when you're million miles away..

it was only now that i remembered about the rumored intensity high(i forgot the exact measure) earthquake that was hearsayed to be predicted by some infamous chu-chu(i forgot him again)..and i am a maniac when it comes to happenings that spell death..hay, good thing i kept myself busied last july 18-predicted date--maybe i would have panicked the moment i woke up..

my chismis time is over..i need to go back to my job so i can go home early..
so see yah fanatics if i have any..
lotsa ♥♥♥♥♥

Friday, July 25, 2008

it paid-off..

..though i'm not really a fanatic of medical courses and related stuffs and i never see myself wearing that all-clean, no-sin white uniform i am damn fuckin' proud of my friends who made it..
i mentioned at my previous blog about them..and i haven't made a mistake..


Wednesday, July 23, 2008

why such???

i've read from a certain blog something about why parents sometimes don't wish their kids to grow up--the consequences they face when the kids turn out be the opposite of what they expect..and parents find it hard to forgive kids who faces that consequences...the disappointment factor is really on top list but come to think of it, almost in all cases, parents are always there for the support--that is the reason why most kids do not think first before entering such situation because they always knew that no matter how they plow life, they got family to back them up..--this is just my personal thought and no offense to those with dissimilar views--i'm not really an adept in life issues and no matter how hard i try to be a counseling kind of person most of my petty advices sucks..

people hurt me--though they are not aware of it..but whatever it is--whether aware or not--they hurt me--and that's a big personal issue..

i'm missing my friends and it deeply hurts me seeing them in their happy photos together..selfish me and reality sucks..long time ago i have been so decided that i will not pursue my degree but the reality that i am here stuck at my hometown which is very far from what i have been dreaming of wanted me to change mind though i know there is no remedy at all..--and amidst the negative thoughts i have about this present thing i am into right now, there is a little hope in me that everything will be all right and that i have made the right choice...--and that the thing i would die doing for now is to prove everyone especially my proud ego that this is the right thing..

my phone book doesn't include my so missed friends in college and high school--I've lost their numbers..i've been dying to text them or call them or whatever..i'm so eager to hear what's new with the school and with the powerhouse---

i don't wanna go home..coz it feels like home doesn't want me too or I'm just a paranoid voodoo doll..lolz..i wanna hurt someone..prick him with million needles or boil him alive--hahaha--lolz!i don't even know that certain someone i wanna kill..

i'm feeling out of range--and i don't wanna feel this way..
i hope i'd have a long time to catch up with him..
he's buying me a pair of shoes i love--and the thought of him buying that girly thing makes me crave for him more and more and most maybe..
but i am always hurting him and though i am controlling myself no to--i do--and it hurts me so..
and i am hoping against hopes and wishing against genies all the bad things i have done were not big matters for him..but that is impossible--though he's not the emotional and issue-full type of person, i know i had big mistakes..i am thinking of karma and i hope karma doesn't think of me--

i don't know if the june 2008 nursing results are out now but i wanna congratulate bumbee,gonggy and angel in advance..i have no doubt they'll make it..
and best luck to ella, rob,junel,rr,bashang,moses and all--i forgot the names and no issue they're not reading this anyway..
i hope someday they get to decide to build a hospital and own it...and me, free of charge of course..

--i'm really feeling like a lost doll today..i'm in random thoughts and it makes me sick..
hope i'll be normal tomorrow..

lotsa love♥♥♥

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

>>my friend luken and his crazy pics..mizyah!!Ü

Kapag wala ang malupet na Boss!

Kapag tinawag ka ng malupet na Boss!

Habang nasa meeting!

Nasa training o seminar!

Coffee break sa baba!

Pag-uwi ng bahay galing opis!

Malapit na mag uwian !

Walang pasok may holiday bukas!

Kapag may inutos and malupet na Boss!

Kapag nalaman na hindi umabot ang report sa deadline *patay kay Boss!

Pagkatapos masabon ng malupet na Boss!

Pinag OT-y ka for 3hrs

Pinag OT-y ka buong gabi!

Matapos sabihin ng malupet na boss na puamsok ka sa christmas at new-year!

Wala kang salary increase this year!

Ugali ng malupet ng Boss habang nag-eexplain ka sa kanya!

Pinagreresign ka ng malupet na Boss!

Sagot sa iyo ng malupet na Boss matapos humingi ng isa pang pagkakataon!

Natanggap mo ang force resignation letter galing sa malupet na Boss!

Ang kinahantungan ng malupet na Boss!

--ibang level na talaga me..year ago i'm blaberring bout my teachers and yet now its BOSS na..hahaha--loving it..definitely miss schooling but this world challenges me..

--i find it quite amazing to know that there are also people out there who finds time to check me up in here..
i always thought no one cares--ive been posting my blogspot url at my shout out for months now..and yet no one really dared clicking it--that's what i know..the least i expect it--a friend would beep me and would say "oi nice baya to imo blogspot"--a comment as simple as that would mean stars and sunshine to me..

--to all who happens to stumble upon this simple refuge--thanks!!
i know my posts here depicts a boring life but still you happen to waste a bit of your precious time..
i do hope that next time you add a bit of time for a comment and maybe if you like make an account in here!!lolz..

been to iligan last weekend..feed up the burning desire of wanting hugs and kisses..--still i want more!!
--when will i have more???lolz..

loving my 1st valley bank family..
saved the supposed fare home..
amidst the negative hearsays, i'm feeling i belong..


Friday, July 11, 2008

...a thought just bumps me today..i decided to put in pics of some friends that captivates me..since this place has been my thoughts refuge i would also like to share photos that mean to me..
so from now on, my blog entries would start with a photo i specially and vainly choose...

>>this is sheena--though we haven't really had a chance to bond long and often--i find her simply cute and amazingly pretty..

--so much for the pics, i'll be in iligan tomorrow..going to see my sis--my old school and my friends..and of course--my boy!!
haven't been there for almost a month--lolz and i have a lot to catch up..

went up with my office mates--they went shopping for the duka bay event--it's going to be our bank's founder's day--sadly, i can't be able to join in..

saw my balikbayan couzin later today..happy!!it's been long..

i wont be able to blog in for a couple of days but im sure im gonna have lots to share when i blog again..

--went blog hopping again and the the entries are super amazing!!Über..

lotsa love♥♥♥

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

...terrible..damn terrible..

silly chismis..stupid realities..

what happened?

you don't really get from people what you see in them..

pure pretense

annoying facades

careless mistakes..

--let's be responsible for our own actions-- a piece of adviceÜ

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

..feel like a princess..

  • nothing crappy bout the title--still overwhelmed with saint-exupery's the little prince book though i've been reading it for the nth's a childish-yet-mature book..lolz..
  • been doing my couzin's powerpoint presentation project..--just because i thought i'm an expert of this--i voluntarily suggested to make the project and to my dismay find myself annoyed and' been my second day raging photobucket and google for exact pictures i could fit in the presentation..the topic's boracay and the concept is to promote the spot--silly me for choosing the place i've never been in so far in my life--imagine the efforts i've put in.
  • currently listening to click five's time machine--my couzin's kind of music..i'm not into music mood anything would do..
  • an excerpt from a comic book..
girl: pag nawala ba ako, mamimiss mo ako??

boy:(silently praying)lord, bigyan nyo po ako ng magandang maisasagot..

after a while..

boy: pag nawala ka, hahanapin kita..


  • miss school--got a friendster comment from my college friend..miss iit--super miss the powerhouse..*sigh!!
  • job confusion--the idea that i'm into a job excites and freaks me..i am now a proud "ulipon sa capitalista" but the hearsays threat me..hayz, kailan ba ako naging better do good for a lasting impression---it's the best choice than looking for a job again..anyways, it was kuya nilo's bday bash--kuya nilo's the chief security of the bank im connected wasn't my plan at first to be at the celebration but when i found out that i'd have an automatic deduction for his birthday(that's the company's rule) ..i decided to stay and eat my hearts least nakabawi ko sa deduction.
  • im happy but not super and i dont want to be super happy pud..hayz,sigh..

Monday, July 7, 2008 bezz ella loves this song..didn't hear this actually but i trust her taste..quite unfortunate to note that jericho rosales is into not-so ideal reputation..

Beautiful In My Eyes By Jericho Rosales
You're my piece of mind, in this crazy world
You're every thing I've tried to find
Your love is a pearl
You're my Mona Lisa
You're my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We'll have our fell of tears
Our share of sight
My only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

And there are lines upon my face
From a life time of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last wine
We can laugh about how time really flies
We won't say goodbye
'Cause true love never dies
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

The passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes...

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

it's ironic that i'm feeling strange in my own place..the homely scent of buuglandia is gone..and the familiarity of my so-called neighbors have evaporated as dew is gone at nine..
what bothers me most is that everyone seems to get shock seeing me around the bank premises..why??don't i have the right to stay at my place??silly people..and silly me for wasting my time drooling on their stupid reactions..

life is not all about change..sometimes, when you're so damn ready to face changes, you'll realize that what's hotta hotta in this material world are those little damn surprises..

though, it's pretty amazing to bump into changes every now and then--like your once-shy-and-almost-silent-friend-turns-into-a-bitchy-chick..or your once-witty-and-adorable-bummy-turns-into-a-smart-ass and all the likes, you can't help but tell yourself, it's the healthy thing for them and maybe that what makes the freakin' happy..
but of course when both changes and pretty surprises attacks you--you can't help it but feel stupid and coward..

i've been ready for changes--prepared myself for that new turn but when i got there, it was still pretty alarming..
no one knows what else is ahead for them..
the only thing's for sure--a lot of "no one knows" things are in store..

distance--though literally doesn't mean emptiness--it bothers me so hard...
torn between my strong will of living a responsible world and the idea of sticking to the person i'm bound to keep..
and even if being away from him hurts like hell and that my whole being shouts his soul, my mature thinking tells me that love can wait and love should be patient as i should be strong..naks!!

miss the place that has been my home for long..
and the people..
i'm used to being solid fan of my dear buug but iligan had carved in me a compassion and a devotion..

living in an almost new world..never sure of what will happen but confidence sparks surprises and respect begets respect..

i'm slowly turning myself into a woman most people doubt i could be..