Thursday, November 10, 2011

never lose hope

No matter how I deny it, the pain he caused me had sent me almost to my limitations. I thought I could never cope up. I thought a rainbow would never be seen peeking in my small rainy world. All my dreams had been literally shattered. And I didn’t quite know where to begin stepping that foot in order to stand up. I was lost, terribly, painfully. I felt rejected like I am the ugliest and the worst person on earth. I never thought of this as our ending, but then who am I to argue; who am I to fight for a battle already lost.

And no matter how painful it is to stand up on your bruised knees, I know I need to keep going. Not because it is the right thing to be done but because it is the only choice I have. I need to pick up the pieces and solve the puzzle again. I need to weave new dreams.

I may lose some years on the wrong one but it didn’t definitely make me a loser. It made me stronger. It gave me the inspiration to face new challenges in life. And by being so, I know that I’d be filled enough to row down the rice fields of life.

It didn’t stop me from believing still on love, on fairytales and prince charming. It didn’t make me see life on the negative side. For all of these had humbled me to take what life has to offer. Take pain and tears, without question; take time slowly and let life. For I will have the time of my own, His own good time.

I may have lost a person but I am gaining a whole new world. I may have lost his love but I’ve obtained love more than what I lost. Life is offering me a total happiness I didn’t know I could have without him; people that may never provide me love similar to his but gives me love more than he could give.

And it made me a better person. I lost and get hurt. But I am still looking forward to that one day when everything would fall into their proper places—probably not the same puzzle but hopefully a better one. And I am looking forward to that day where I can forgive and forget. I may not be seeing a rainbow peering in my own small rainy world now and on the coming days, but I would never lose hope that soon—one day in my life, I could have that rainbow and who knows, it could have a pot of gold on its end.