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...tired, stressed,bored,confused..
happy,contented,in bliss..
i'm having both of the worlds and it makes me lucky and in vain at the same time..

ironic???so ironic..
i'm not having the best of the world but things seem to fall in their places..
though i'm feeling a bit nauseatic for tomorrow's job evaluations, i can feel that i'm almost there..
i'm not used to waking up early and spending most of my time at the office but i better practice now...sigh*
i want to laugh myself out but there are certain things that keep me grounded..
--people that matters


i'm a super selfish bitch but hey, now i can't totally be happy if my friends aren't..dammit..
and the hard thing--you want to help but they won't allow you..
hypocrites..
slowly, they're killing me--of curiosity and deprivation..
i hope they'd have the guts and the trust..

no man is an island..

in-process

...my blogspot's currently in- process..
i need to have a pretty header but i don't know how..senxa nlang muna..
busy pa din with job training..
til next tym..

♥♥♥lotsaluv♥♥♥

☺☻☺your lifetime friend☻☺☻

...been out of cyber space lately..

...updating...updating...updating..

friends do mean a lot to me..i've been pampered with friends since time immemorial..and i guess i'm not gonna live life without them..who'd be of course..

and since im out of my friends' reach, i so damn miss the freaks..

most of them are not really familiar with this site but just in case..

to my forever and always RAVEEN

...we've really come to our responsible points, though i could live a lifetime laughing and talking with you girls, it is also a bit healthier for us to explore the world and the future..don't worry, nothing could make me richer than our ultimate friendship..

bezz, though we're far away from each other these past years, i am so glad that we remain with each other..you just don't know how much i appreciate it when you reach out and update me with all that's in you now..and though i am not so vocal with our friendship id like you to know that i pray for the best things for you♥♥♥

natz,she and nday..the dillemas that you onced faced never hinder us rather it made us stronger..

gel, rest..will always be here either ul be RN or not..hehehe

luvyah bezz,natz,day,she and gel...

to MSU batch 2004..

...the forever sharing batch..hope we could share and share..forevah..nyahaha!!

you're the institution that taught me most of my firsts..

and the hard times are just as cool as the good ones..

we dream a lot and i know they're bound to come true and i'm so eager to wait for that moment

i can't wait for that one crazy moment where we can brag our achievements, argue about petty matters and just laugh about it afterwards

to JPIA powerhouse..

guys, i learned to dream..i got inspired..so keep it up..

i am so damn proud of u!!♥♥♥

never did i meet persons so focused and so determined as u ol..

you helped me defeat the hostilities yet bestowed in me the wonders of college life..

to my street friends..

bmates, schoolmates,textmates..exes,suitors and passers by..though our friendship time doesn't spell forever, i'm glad you put up a rainbow in me..you maybe aren't there during my appaling times nonetheless i was bursting with bliss.. and though some of you were the reason of my once blurry and bleedy life, the lesson it fed me cannot pay off the said twinge..

and so im awfully glad that sometime in our lives we met and you all would never be forgotten..

to my co-trainees at 1st valley bank..

our personalities may be poles apart but the laughter binds us..and as we are about to end the sanctuary that holds us..may we be filled with the knowledge that should be imparted to us and of course the camaraderie that knotted our disparity..

and to my newest and hopefully lasting bestfriend..

bebee, you picked me up at my lowest and you supported me with all the things i have and wanted..you're a blessing and i am bound to keep you all my life even if it would make me the poorest..i have loved and been loved in the past yet no one made me feel as contented as as gleeful as now..

though sometimes i get fixated with other things, you never tried to help me through it..

thank you..you just don't know how much i appreciate and admire you..

i love you and i am so happy and proud i have you..

♥♥♥

rrrannddoommm..

...i miss my phone and my phoney friends..hell yeah, my phone wasn't the best phone in the world..it was just a simple 1100..nyahaha..in short, it was a poor phone..no camera, no mp3 and all those high tech stuffs that people are dozing over..but it was MY PHONE!!and it was like no other for me..miss all the quotes and the chitchats,the forwarded messages,the arguments and the good stuffs..miss connecting with friends..
--i want a new phone!!nah, it sounds so selfish..i need a new phone!!
i hope mom gets the nerve to buy me a new one..the high tech one..nyahaha..i'm not really a material kind of girl but hightech phones are fad..

..been obligated to enrol my sis while she's home enjoying her remaining summer..bought a 250 ml pyrex beaker for her clearance purposes and left her prf at the controller's office..let her do the rest of the job..bad ate!!

..got a petty argument with bebee last night..i so thought last night would end our affair..good thing we both came to our senses..

...will be in cdo this wednesday or thursday..hopefully!!got to follow up my job application..hoping against all hopes i'd get the job..

more prayers and less foods--ultimate goal in life!!
lotsa love!!
♥♥♥♥♥

shoutouts!

...i updated my friendster account and visited some of my friends' pages..
--quiet curious with the shoutouts...
for random samples..take a good look..

my friends and their shoutouts!!!

venus(my sister)--"dying is only one thing to be sad over..living unhappily is something else"

ella(my bezzy)--"i'm going to smile like nothing's wrong, talk like evrything's perfect, act like it's all a dream, & pretend it's not hurting me..."

nday esther--"just listen..don't bother believing:]]"

nyzelle--"i am happy. i am with someone who makes me happy. i am hoping for the best but expecting the worst. i had been thru a lot and if what i am experiencing right now would turn out bad, it would suck, sure...but it wouldn't be anything new."

ate joycelle gen--"Affection is desirable...Money is absolutely indispensable..."

ate ritz--"destiny belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams and have the courage to pursue it. don't stop when u are tired. stop when u r done."

celeste--"the best way to survive is to simplify.."


hmmmm...couldn't really comprehend if those certain shoutouts mirror their present emotions..
hope so and hope so not!!