supervanvan

never lose hope

2011-11-10T17:05:00.001-06:00

No matter how I deny it, the pain he caused me had sent me almost to my limitations. I thought I could never cope up. I thought a rainbow would never be seen peeking in my small rainy world. All my dreams had been literally shattered. And I didn’t quite know where to begin stepping that foot in order to stand up. I was lost, terribly, painfully. I felt rejected like I am the ugliest and the worst person on earth. I never thought of this as our ending, but then who am I to argue; who am I to fight for a battle already lost.

And no matter how painful it is to stand up on your bruised knees, I know I need to keep going. Not because it is the right thing to be done but because it is the only choice I have. I need to pick up the pieces and solve the puzzle again. I need to weave new dreams.

I may lose some years on the wrong one but it didn’t definitely make me a loser. It made me stronger. It gave me the inspiration to face new challenges in life. And by being so, I know that I’d be filled enough to row down the rice fields of life.

It didn’t stop me from believing still on love, on fairytales and prince charming. It didn’t make me see life on the negative side. For all of these had humbled me to take what life has to offer. Take pain and tears, without question; take time slowly and let life. For I will have the time of my own, His own good time.

I may have lost a person but I am gaining a whole new world. I may have lost his love but I’ve obtained love more than what I lost. Life is offering me a total happiness I didn’t know I could have without him; people that may never provide me love similar to his but gives me love more than he could give.

And it made me a better person. I lost and get hurt. But I am still looking forward to that one day when everything would fall into their proper places—probably not the same puzzle but hopefully a better one. And I am looking forward to that day where I can forgive and forget. I may not be seeing a rainbow peering in my own small rainy world now and on the coming days, but I would never lose hope that soon—one day in my life, I could have that rainbow and who knows, it could have a pot of gold on its end.

with vengeance

2011-11-09T22:38:00.002-06:00

matapos ang mahigit isang taon, ang inyong lingkod ay nagbabalik.. ika nga, maaalala mo lang naman ang ibang maliliit pero mahahalagang bagay kapag iniwan ka na ng akala mo ay pinakamahalaga sa lahat.. so, blogspot, i'm back, with vengeance..and thank you for the open arms..

if all else fails, would you be there to love me.. if all else fails, would you be brave to see right through me..

simbang gabi, simula ng pasko

2010-12-15T06:25:00.005-06:00

Simbang gabi simula ng pakso
Sa puso ng lahing pilipino
Siyam na gabi kaming gumigising
Sa tugtog ng kampanang walang tigil

Ding dong ding dong ding
Maaga kami kinabukasan
Lalakad kaming langkay-langkay

Babatiin ang ninong at ninang Ng maligayang pasko po
At hahalik ng kamay
Lahat kami'y masayang-masaya
At puno ang bulsa
Hindi namin malimutlimutan ang masarap na puto't suman
Matutulog kami ng mahimbing

Pasko na! pasko na! May parol na nagbitin!
Nakikita na sa mga bitwin
Ang pagsilang ng nino sa belen
Luwalhati luwalhati sa diyos Sa kaitaasan!
At sa lupa'y kapayapaan sa
Mga taong may mabuting kalooban!

tomorrow, it is..

and I wanna thank Gelrob Daños for giving me a new mug that I can use for some milk, milo and cocoa but never coffee right after the 9 mornings..

to chiksilog, with love..

2010-12-10T05:20:00.004-06:00

i have long wanted to blog again..yet, i didn't have the courage and inspiration to do so.. i know all i'm going to blog about would be how deeply i miss my kolehiyo and hayskul friends..how i've been fighting this so called "long distance" relationship and how i wanted to get free of something i have been doing today..

but then again, i have missed, a lot..i am going to back read a century of good thoughts..

this post is all about how...

i wanna support chiksilog's nomination to philippine blog awards, but i'm disqualified..hahaha..

my last entry was about her birthday photo pacontest which was around march or april this year...and surely, the mind behind the blog contest would never accept my post..i'm like isang patay na blogger na biglang nagmumulto..

i just realized now, that i should have visited, at least my tumblr, so i could support xienahgirl..she deserves it, because she truly rocks blogosphere..well, at least, in my own opinion..

she's my blog queen, and i would forever be inspired and awed by her works, even in tumblr..

i hope she gets it..no doubt about it, but still, i'm praying..

chiksilog blog contest

2010-03-30T19:32:00.008-05:00

i'm super back because of chiksilog's pacontest..

yes, ang aking idol sa blogworld...ang pagsali daw dito ay basehan ng aming pagkakaibigan..
hindi pa naman kami umabot sa ganoong punto, pero nais ko siyang pasayahin sa aking pagsali.

so cheers to xG and to her so many talents..

madaming salamat sa pagiging totoo..
sa hindi pagiging isnab..
at higit sa lahat, sa pagbuhay ng aking katawang lupa..
yeah!

panaghinigalaay ( friendship sa english ) aws..sakto ba pagkatranslate??

2009-09-16T08:18:00.002-05:00

crazy

cool

fun

love

kaibigan

hinding hindi ko sila ipagpapalit kahit na sa ilang tanso at pilak pa..

mahal ko sila, gaya ng bituin sa kanyang buwan..

SERIOUS FUN

2009-08-18T07:42:00.003-05:00

WHITE WATER RAFTING AT CAGAYAN DE ORO RIVER..

WITH CDO'S BEST TEAM KAGAY AND THE BEST RIVER GUIDES EVER!

ANG SAYA!

my butter COCOnut!

2009-08-11T05:53:00.003-05:00

i super duper love you COCO MARTIN!

napanaginipan kita kagabi..

HHWW daw tayo..

ang taray ko...ang swerte mo!

ngayong gabi ulit..

mwaahhhhuuuggggzzz...tttsssuuuppp!

i wish i'm back!

2009-07-08T07:02:00.003-05:00

dear blogspot,

ipagpaumanhin nyo ang pag-absent ko nitong mga nakaraang araw. sana ay open arms ka pa rin sa aking pagbabalik.
ang tagal kong nawala, parang nakakapanibago. ung last post ko eh tungkol pa sa la independencia, tingnan mo't naging magjowa na si john lloyd at rufa tas dedbol na si idol michael jackson..wohooo..

bakit nga ba ako nawala? di naman siguro ako nadapuan ng a(h1n1). di rin ako masyadong nagluksa kay mj ..at higit sa lahat hindi ako affected sa pda moments nina john lloyd at ruffa sa high-end streets ng stets..

hhhhmmm...nakakahiyang aminin pero wala na kaming intarnets sa bahay..yeah, pinaputol ni mamang dahil hindi ko naman nagagamit dahil magdamag naman akong nasa opis para sa sagarang offertime.

ipinagbawal na rin ang ym at kahit anong may kaugnayan sa intarnets dito sa opis.. namiss ko tuloy ang super ka ym kong si superg at ate yanah..pati na sina ms.jen at ms.azel..

eh, saan ako nakiinternet ngayon?chekwet..basta, nakihits...lolz..

i miss you.. you know..

alam mong di ako kumpleto kung wala ka blogspot...hinahawakan mo ata ang isa sa pinakamahalagang parte ng buhay ko..ang kalayaan ng isip at bukambibig ng puso..rowts!

hanggang sa muli!..

kalayaan..kapayapaan..yow!

2009-06-11T10:09:00.003-05:00

*** it's rare that i get to draw something..and it's even rare that i draw what's in my heart..

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isang liham para sa minamahal..

lost and found!

2009-06-09T09:17:00.004-05:00

yeah ayt! i was lost..sa trabaho, sa buhay buhay..hayz..

naging busy ako sa kakasunod sa updates sa nakakasukang sina hayden at katrina..

naging busy sa mock training ng bank kung saan narealize ko na mali mali pala ung procedures namin sa branch..oh well, back to basics na talaga..

naging busy sa kahihintay sa civil service results kung saan pumasa ako..waaahh..with flying colors??hhhmm, ewan ko..di ko pa narerecieve ung proper notice pero hopefully..bleeh..ang yabang..ayan, eligible na ako..pwede nakong pumasok sa mga government agencies..hopefully din, goodbye na sa umaaliping kapitalista..

busy sa kakadasal na wag naman sanang abutin ng a(h1n1) ang aking maliit na nayon, which is possible talaga dahil wala naman masyadong balikbayan na nagsisiuwian sa probinsiya..

busy sa pag-uupload ng mga old and new photos na kung saan pagreresize palang ay kumakain na ng malaking oras..

well, ngtry akong magpatumbling tumbling sa tumblr.com..medyo naging cool siya nung una pero kinacount nila ung paggawa mo ng activities in their tumblarity which truly sucks..
so, in short, nagrereblog sila ng reblog para lang sa tumblarity kahit hindi naman masyadong sensible ung ibang notes..ooopppss..sori!

***rainbow in the city

***ang lechon sa probinsiya..

***kyla's bistro @ cdo

***over bo's chocolate chips

***obviously, this ain't a rich kid, but her mom has the richest positive attitude in the world..

***windows of our lives

**ante jo's wholesale business

***my training id..

i'm planning of some new things in life..
lolz..i want moving out..i'm not happy anymore..i just wish that things would fall into their proper places or more that the universe would conspire in helping me achieve what i want in life..
syempre, aminado akong hindi ko pa din kaya mag-isa..

summer's out..school's in..

2009-05-26T10:22:00.004-05:00

still running out of words to say..

..like summer has come to end and me not having a blast on it and school is about to knock and i'm stupidly missing the feeling of being a kolehiyala again..

i miss..

business law and taxation, cost accounting, group dynamics in marketing and management..my funny history 4, cool humanities 1 and oh-so boring polsci..

queuing along cashier's and registrar's office for enrollment and watching out on who'll handle the major this sem and how terror he could get..

the jollibee meals on firsts of the months and pancit canton on month-ends.

coffee shops, ice cream parlors, tempura houses..

parks, pools and theaters..

group study, overnight study, cramming..

everything..

how silly could i get wanting the school to end way back..and discovering how work sucks..

oh well...nuff!

***the family that beach together, stays forever

*** summer must-eat minus the leche flan

p.s: CONGRATZ TO MY GOOD FRIEND GLADYS PACAMALAN FOR PASSING THE RECENT CERTIFIED PUBLIC ACCOUNTANT BOARD EXAM..I'M SO PROUD OF YOU..

(hindi ko afford ung tarp eh..kaya blog blog lang muna..)

this is so not me..nkaenglish eh...boohooo..

3-in-1 plus one..happy kaarawan!

2009-05-19T09:56:00.006-05:00

happy birthday banana!

ayan, nakisali ako sa piktyur...

super madaming blessings sayo, sa pamilya mo at sa akin..

labyu!

xoxo

2009-05-14T08:02:00.002-05:00

ang aking isang dekadang selpon na adik sa kakatext at kakatawag sa lowtech din niyang selpon..
ayokong palitan yan kasi dyan kami madalas nagmomoments.
ung ibibili ko ng bago, iloload ko na lang ng madaming load..madidinig ko pa siya..

..at tsaka..krisis kaya ngayon..

silahis ang katulad mo...

2009-05-06T05:26:00.003-05:00

isa po itong tribute para sa pinakamamahal kong alma mater..

mahal kong msu-iit,

hindi ko man naipadama sayo ang sangkaterba kong pagkagalak at pasasalamat sa apat na taong pag-aaruga mo sa kin..YOU ARE SO MUCH TREASURED! EVER!!!

kahit hindi ko napasukan lahat ng klase at di ko naipasa lahat ng exams mo, hindi nawala o maski nabawasan ang paghanga ko sayo..

hindi man ako nagdulot ng magandang pangalan such as magtop ng board exams at maging kahanga hanga sa kumunidad, naging mabuti naman ako at kanais nais sa mga maliliit na bagay..

salamat..miss na kita..

gusto ko lang din ishare ang mga achievements ng aking alma mater..alam ko, maliit na bagay ang mga ito para ipagmalaki..pero para sa aming taga mindanao na kung saan mahirap makilevel sa mga taga luzon at visayas lalo na at naibubuntot pa ang terorismo sa masayang pangalan ng aming nayon, napakalaking bahagi na ng mga konting achievements na ito...marami pa din naman ang nagbibigay masamang impresyon sa mahal kong paaralan..hindi ako makikipag-argumento sa kong sino man kayo dahil entitled naman tayo sa ating sariling opinyon..

October 2006 Certified Public Accountant
Licensure Examination

The successful examinees who garnered the ten (10) highest places are the following:

1 GILLIANNE ROSELLE CRUZ SAY UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINESDILIMAN
91.86
2 IRINE SABADUQUIA TE- MINDANAO STATE UNIVERSITY-ILIGAN
INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY
91.43
3 ALVIN SALVATIERRA CABALLERO POLYTECHNIC UNIVERSITY OF THE
PHILIPPINES-MAIN-STA.MESA
91.00

Electronics Engineer Licensure Exam Result November 2007-Topnotchers

1. Jake Daryll Ello Obina -- Mindanao State University-Iligan Institute of Technology (91.10)
2. Virgil Roy Requiroso Ajo -- Mindanao State University-Iligan Institute of Technology (90.10)
3. Adrian Solis Paala -- Polytechnic University of the Philippines-Sto. Tomas, Batangas (89.90)

November 2008 Civil Engineering Board Exam Result (CE) Topnotchers
1. MARICEL DELA CRUZ AQUINO, UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES-LOS BAÑOS 99.10
2. SERG JASON MODEQUILLO BODIONGAN, MINDANAO STATE UNIVERSITY-ILIGAN INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY 98.952.
3.MA DOREEN ESPLANA CANDELARIA, UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES-DILIMAN 98.95

SEPTEMBER 2008 BAR EXAMINATION TOPNOTCHERS
1. Lardizabal, Judy A. - San Sebastian College 85.70%
2. Amerol-Macumbal, Mylene I. - Mindanao State University- Iligan Institute of Technology 85.65%
3. Baclay, Jr., Oliver P. - Ateneo de Manila University 85.60%

April 2009 Chemical Engineer Board Exam Results Licensure Examination Results
The successful examinees who garnered the ten (10) highest places are the following:

1. Edmark Icalina, Mindanao State University-Iligan Institute of Technology - 83.60%
2. Dominic Baylas, De La Salle University-Manila - 82.90%
3. Prince Elmer Reyes, University of the Philippines-Diliman - 80.80%

sila sila lamang ang naalala kong nagtop ng exams..pero alam ko, madami dami pa sila..lolz..
madalas sabihin ng karamihan na swerte daw ang mas mabigat na dahilan upang pumasa ang isang tao, kung magkagayon man, salamat Papa Jesus sa bumubuhos na swerte..

i wanna flirt with yah baby...

2009-05-04T10:08:00.004-05:00

isang malupit na paraan ng pag-amin ng nararamdaman:

"bago pa nila lagyan ng malisya ang pagkakaibigan natin...

...hayaan mong lagyan ko na.."

akin ang araw na ito!

2009-04-28T23:19:00.005-05:00

isang maligayang kaarawan sa pinakamagandang nilalang sa balat ng lupa----AKO!!

isang masaganang bagong yugto sa aking buhay...

nawa'y magkaroon ako ng mas madaming biyaya at kaligayahan..

salamat sa mga taong bumalot ng kasiyahan sa aking puso at nagbigay ng inspirasyon sa aking buhay...

alam niyo na kung sino kayo..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANVAN

I LOVE YOU!

ang kyut ng ina nyo!

2009-04-17T05:17:00.014-05:00

ipinagmamalaki kong ihandog ang mga bulilit na magpapasikip ng mga panty at brief ng mga sumusunod na henerasyon..

ang mga mukhang magpapaiyak ng maraming kababaihan at magpapainom ng maraming kalalakihan..

ang mga personalidad na magiging "talk of the town" at aangkinin ang tronong kasalukuyang pinagtatayuan nina marian rivera at piolo pascual..

ang mga anyong magpapalunod ng milyong barko..

ang mga bagong pantasya ng bayan sa susunod na henerasyon..

abangan ang paghahasik ng kanilang alindog at kariktan..

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tsadan...

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***jan gwyneth at kyla louise portia( my cousin chona's daughters)---wiwindangin ang beauty nina shaina at maja....

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*** adnil erin ( manang chona's youngest) --hoy kim chiu! patay ka dito!!

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*** audrei ( kuya champoy's prinsesa) -- wag masyadong dumaldal iyang si mariel rodriguez at sarah geronimo dahil wala silang ibubuga rito!

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*** marku ( kuya mark's pretty boy) -- aba! aba! kahit pagsamahin mo pa si piolo pascual at dingdong dantes eh no match rito..asa pa kayo!

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***khalil ( manang charo's son--a maranao kid) --talentado ito kaya sam milby, magbalot balot kana!

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*** ephraim kenzo -- ( bestie esther's baby) -- astig ito, kulang kulang ang pogi points nina jake cuenca at gerald anderson sa kamachohan nito..

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*** nathaniel von aka boojie ( bestie nutmeg's baby) -- sinong kamukha nito paglaki?? si john lloyd o si richard guttierrez..sus! asa pa kayo..mas gwapo ito!!

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*** samantha ( manang shanghai's 1st daughter) -- mas matalino, mas model, mas maganda, mas magaling pa ni kc concepcion..

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*** symone ( manang shanghai's 2nd daughter) -- hindi lang kembot at pakyut ang kayang gawin tulad ng ke marian rivera...she will be the next superstar!

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at syempre, ang mga batang naihandog ay hindi magkakaroon ng sadyang kariktan at galing kung walang pagmamanahan...

***vanvan( nakaupo at pinakamaganda sa lahat); dongkoy ( nakapulang shorts); venus ( nakadaster at plaster na smile) -- eto ang mga mukhang kasalukuyang nakikipagbuno sa trono ng mga sikat at magaganda..pano ba yan..kelangan pa nilang kumembot, umiyak, ilabas ang ngala ngala sa pagkanta upang mapuna ng tao samantalang simpleng simple lang namang maging sikat at pagkaguluhan ng tao...gumawa ng blog at maging dyosa sa sariling kaharian..tsadan!

have a tax-free summer with a 90/10 principle-inspired attitude, pinoy bloggers!...Ü

2009-04-03T03:29:00.009-05:00

***mga dyosa sa batis..

***inaanalyze namin ni banana ang lalim ng 16 feet..

***with our skimpiest swimming attires...dapat manonood kami ng sunrise eh..

...ayan, nananawagan na ang mga batis, talon, dalampasigan, dagat at lahat na ata ng anyong tubig sa balat ng earth..panahon na para maglustay ulit ng pera para sa pansariling kaligayahan...

kaakibat ng masasayang beach trips, bakasyon sa probinsiya, dry picnics, bagong short lessons at courses ay ang aking....

tsadan...

..birthday..

opo, mag bebente dos na po ako sa abril bente nuwebe..itatak nyo po yan sa inyong mga noo at batok...

" don't worry about getting old, people around you are getting old with you.."

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nakuha ko na ang aking tax identification number matapos ang humigit kumulang na apat na buwan...bahagi na ako ng mga kalsada sa pilipinas, ng mga makabuluhang proyekto ng gobyerno..bahagi na rin ako ng bagong bmw ni pers gentelman..magiging milyon na ang isandaan kong tax kung dadalhin ito ng mga crocs ng malacañang sa casino..isang starbucks kape na ang aking isang buwang buwis...malayo layo din pala ang mararating ng aking maliit na kontribusyon para sa ikauunlad ng bayan ni juan at higit sa lahat, para sa munting kasiyahan nga mga malalaking tae ng pinas..

hay naku, magmaktol man ako ng buong buhay ko, magsimpatiya ng walang katapusan, ewan ko lang kung may mangyari..

nadelay ng isang oras ang byahe ko papuntang kabilang probinsiya dahil sa "proyekto ng mga elect and aspiring politicians"...di ko maintindihan kung bakit sementado na nga, binabakbak pa para isemento ulit..hay naku...alam na iyang style na iyan..so baduy and so luma..gahaman na gahaman ang dating..bakit hindi na lang magpundar ng ibang proyekto???..of corz, masyadong mahal yun..mauubos ang budget at wala nang mapupunta sa mga bulsa nilang sing lalim ng balon...ooooppppsss, no offense meant...i'm gonna shut my ala angelina jolie mouth na nga lang...

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ibinahagi ni areaman sa amin ang isang inspiring principle mula kay stephen covey..

ang 90/10 principle..

10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react.

tama..ilang beses na ba akong namroblema ng mga bagay bagay na sarili ko lang ang salarin...
mga bagay na kung sanay pinag-isipan, tinimbang bago inaksyunan at dinesisyunan ay magdudulot sana ng positibong resulta..

ang tao ay tao..ako ay tao..kaya ako ganito..

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maraming mga blogista ang nagbabalak magbakasyon..kasalukuyang nasa bakasyon at napagdesisyunang maghiatus sa kadahilanang sila lamang ay may alam..

nakakainggit kayo..sana makapagbakasyon din ako..

sa lahat ng mga blogista ng pinas! it's sun time!!!

p.s: congratz sa mga bagong lawyers..yahoo...at sa second placer galing saking alma mater..ms. mylene amerol-macumbal...saludo ako sayo!!!mabuhay msu!!!!

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2009-03-26T09:46:00.003-05:00

something to think about...

i l♥ve you moreÜ

2009-03-21T09:26:00.005-05:00

***i need to let go of a new friend just to hold on to a hopefully-forever-love..

kahit ilang beses mo akong papipiliin at kahit sino pa ang taong magiging katapat mo sa pagpili ko, ikaw at ikaw pa rin..

nagkakamali ang tao at inaamin kong nagkakamali ako higit pa sa minsan..pero ang intensiyon kong gawin ang bagay na yun ay malayo sa iniisip mo ngayon..

hindi kita pinapasok sa buhay ko upang maging wala sa huli..nang ibigay ko ang matamis kong "uu" kasama na doon ang posibilidad na maaring angkinin mo ako ng panghabambuhay at ganun din ako sa yo..pero sa panahong tinatahak pa natin ang posibilidad na iyon, nais kong bigyan nating halaga ang mga taong maaring maging instrumento ng ating pagtitibay at pagtatagal..nais ko ring bigyan natin ng higit na halaga ang ating mga sarili upang maihanda natin ito sa pagkakataong maaring ibigay sa atin ng tadhana..

ikaw at ikaw lang.wala ng iba. maipapangako ko yan.

alam kong alam mo nang parte ng buhay ko ang mga bagay bagay na katulad ng pagsusulat, pakikibahagi at pakikipagkaibigan...

oo, ikaw ang higit kong ligaya, ngunit ang mga bagay ding iyon ay nagpapasaya sa akin..

masusunod ang gusto mo, pero sana ay buksan mo ang iyong isip sa mga bagay na gusto ko at hindi lang gusto mo...

p.s: my classmate in grade 1 died kanina 12:05pm at the age of 22...complications on his toxic goiter..i hope you could help me pray for his soul..

may you rest in peace, atoi...your memories stay...

bakit ganito???

2009-03-20T05:18:00.002-05:00

" siguro kung tatamaan ng kidlat ang mga taong hindi tumutupad sa salitang "pramis", magmimistulang may fireworks display araw-araw".

mood swings...

2009-03-13T04:53:00.003-05:00

naiintindihan ko na parte sa buhay ng tao ang mood swings..na nakadepende ang emotion niya sa nagaganap sa palibot libot at ang reaksiyon ng mga taong nasa sitwasyon o kahit ang pabago bago na panahon..pero ang hindi ko maintindihan eh bakit me mga taong over na, exagg pa..na kailangan kada minuto mag mood change...oh yeah, sinuswerte kayo..

unang umapoy ang aking tambutso sa mga mood swings na ito sa kaklase kong pasweet na girl nung highcshool..sa kalagitnaan ng mga kilig kwentos, mga backbiting moments at kung ano ano pang pinapapak naming pag-usapan noon ay bigla na lamang siyang tatahimik, di maipinta ang mukha, aalis, pupuntang bintana at dudungaw doon na para bang ang kanyang prince charming ay nasa saturn sa lukot ng mukha..at kami namang naiwan eh isip ng isip..what went wrong??..

at sa kwadradong opisinang ito eh nagkalat at mga mood swingers..lahat yata ng tipo ng mga swingers eh dito ibinalandra...mula ke big boss hanggang sa mga SG..

kapag ka si bosskie na ang nagmomood swing, nakakatakot yun..syempre kontodo paimpress ako dun..noong una ay nginig tuhod ako kapag sa kalagitnaan nang makulay na atmospera ay bigla nalang magdidilim ang kanyang aura..pero ngayon, hindi na ako natitinag sa mga paiba iba niyang kulay..alam ko na dinudugo siya kahit wala siyang butas..

ang mga chikas naman dito ay double-sided...wild and silent at mabilis magchange skin..hindi mo malalaman pero daraan ang isang buong araw na wala man lang kayong imikan..at kapag ka nagiging comfortable ka na sa pagiging tahimik ninyong lahat at gusto mo na ang sound of silence, eh doon naman sila magbubukas ng bibig at magpuputak...hay tao..kakaloka..

alam ko hindi ako perpekto pagdating sa ugali at pakikisama pero palagi kong inilalagay ang aking self sa mga situations..pinipilt ko ring mag-adjust iba't ibang uri nga tao..

kapag dumating ang mga panahong nais kong manahimik..hinihintay ko ang tamang oras na makapanahimik ako ng todo todo at hindi yung basta ko nalang sila icocold war dahil feel ko mabingi sa katahimikan..at kapag me tao akong kinagagalitan, eh hindi ko isinasali ung walang alam at walang kinalaman..unfair yun..

kapag dumadating ang mga puntong nagliliyaban at nagsisiatake ang mga mood swingers..naiisip kong magkulong sa cash vault at titigan ng titigan si ninoy..pero syempre bawal ako dun..kaya yun..hanggang sa panahong ito, nakikibagay at nakikisama pa rin..

sulat-kamay (my version)

2009-03-10T21:25:00.004-05:00

nagkasakit ako these past days..and i'm sort of not feeling well pa rin..kaya wala na naman pumapasok na magandang ideya sa utak ko para sa isang lehitimong post..lage naman ganun..

so papatulan ko nalang itong tag galing ke superg..unlike the so many tags na lumalaganap sa sangkablogosperyuhan, medyo iba ang tag na ito..kasi sobrang effort..at isa na naman parte na ating pagkatao ang maiexpose..ang sulat-kamay..aheks..pinilit pilit kong gandahan ang aking sulat-kamay para naman maging kanais -nais siya sa inyong paningin..at kung hindi pa rin siya kanais nais, pasensiya na po at yan lamang ang nakayanan..oh yeah, i'm so humble like that..

gaya po namin ni superg at lahat ng gumawa ng tag na ito, bigyan niyo rin po ng panahon ang tag na ito kahit mahirap..aheks..yah know..recess time para sa napudpod niyo ng daliri kasabay ng faded na keyboard..

simple lang naman ang mga rules..

1. isulat ang pangalan ng multong walanghiyang nagtag sa iyo..

2. answer the ff..

♥ your name/ username / pseudo

♥ right- handed? or left-handed?

♥ your favorite letters to write

♥ your least favorite letters to write

♥ write " the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog "

3. mag tag ng limang multong gusto mo ring walang hiyain..

katulad nila...

♥ lio loco

♥ a-z-e-l

♥ winkie

♥ elyong

♥ lucas

aheks, so what are yah waitin for??

you're not gone..you're just ahead of us..Ü

2009-03-06T22:47:00.002-06:00

...according to kris aquino, he was a true visionary..a true legend

...according to my friend denees, he was one of the few who made nationalism cool..Ü

...and he was like eraserheads to me..

pasweet lang♥

2009-03-04T06:07:00.003-06:00

isang araw, malungkot si vanvan

banana : alam mo bang ikaw ang pangalawang pinakamagandang babaeng nakita ko..

vanvan : huh?! eh, sino yung una?

banana : ikaw...

....pag nakasmile..

at nagsmile nga si vanvan...

...isang crocodile smile!!!

i said, i'm sorry mama

2009-03-01T22:20:00.003-06:00

may iilang araw na din na hindi kami nagkikibuan ng aking motherhood courtesy of yours truly..hindi kami nagkaintindihan dahil pinipilit ko ang gusto kong mangyari at todo supalpal naman si motherhood sa aking mga golden plans..masyado akong confident sa mga sarili kong diskarte not knowing all those consequences na pwedeng mangyari..nagmarunong ako ng nagmarunong..inakala na pwede nang tumayo sa sariling mga paa..

nasaktan ko si motherhood pero napakamaldita ko upang magpakumbaba..mali ako, pero napakafeeling matalino ko para aminin yun..inakala ko na higit na ang kaalaman ko sa buhay ..na hindi ko na kailangan ang kanilang mga opinyon at payo upang bumuo ng desisyon..

hindi ko inisip ang mga dugo't pawis na naipundar ng aking motherhood upang ako'y maging ganap na ako sa mga panahong ito..

****

kaninang umaga lang isang e-mail ang natanggap ko na gumahasa sa aking konsensiya at sumaksak sa aking puso..

SULAT NI TATAY & NANAY

Anak,

Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana ako at pagpasensiyahan.

Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag-kainan, huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan.

Maramdamin ang isang matanda. Nagse-self- pity ako tuwing sisigawan mo ako.

Kapag mahina ang tenga ko at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinabi mo, huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan na bingi. Pakiulit na lang ang sinabi mo o pakisulat na lang. Pasensiya ka na, anak. Matanda na talaga ako.

Kapag mahina na ang tuhod ko, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo, katulad ng pag-alalay ko sa iyo noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.

Pagpasensiyahan mo sana ako kung ako man ay nagiging makulit at paulit-ulit na parang sirang-palaka. Basta pakinggan mo na lang ako.

Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan o pagsasawaang pakinggan. Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa? Kapag gusto mo ng lobo, paulit-ulit mo yong sasabihin. Maghapon kang mangungulit hanggang hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo. Pinagtiyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.

Pagpasensiyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy. Amoy-matanda na ang katawan ko. Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan, huwag mo sana akong pandirihan. Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa? Pinagtiyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalim ng kama kapag ayaw mong maligo.

Pagpasensiyahan mo sana kung ako’y madalas masungit, dala na marahil ito ng katandaan. Pagtanda mo, maiintidihan mo rin ako.

Kapag may konti kang panahon, magkuwentuhan naman tayo, kahit sandali lang, inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa. Walang kausap. Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho, subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabik na

sabik na akong makakuwentuhan ka, kahit alam kong hindI ka interesado sa mga kuwento ko.

Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa? Pinagtiyagaan kong

pakinggan at intindihin ang pautal-utal mong kuwento tungkol sa inyong teddy bear.

At kapag dumating ang sandali na akoy magkasakit at maratay sa banig ng karamdaman, huwag mo sana akong pagsawaang alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay. Tutal hindi naman ako magtatagal.

Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw, hawakan mo sana ang aking kamay at bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin ang kamatayan.

Huwag kang mag-alala, kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha, ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagpalain ka, dahil naging mapagmahal ka sa iyong ama at ina.

Laging nagmamahal,

Tatay at Nanay

napakabait ni BRO at binigyan nya ako ng pamilyang handang umintindi sa lahat ng aking mga tantrums at pinipilit ibigay ang aking mga unnecessary luho sa buhay..napakabait niya dahil binigyan niya ako ng isang motherhood na kayang magsakripisyo at handang dumamay sa mga kabiguan ko sa buhay..isang motherhood na handang makibaka sa mga futuristic plans ng inyong likod..

napakabait ni BRO at pinamukha niya sa akin habang maaga pa ang aking mga kabulastugan..hindi ko man maipapangako na magiging super bait na ako...kakayanin kong wag na maging selfish at wag magdunong dunongan dahil super halata naman na wala kong masyadong alam..

kung sino man ang me akda ng naispread out na liham na ito, salamat..

****

pag-uwi ko ng bahay ngayong gabi, bibigyan ko ang aking motherhood ng isang mahigpit na **POWEHUGZ!** at matinding XOXOXO...

p.s: hindi pa matanda si motherhood, nevertheless, nakonsenya pa rin ako sa liham..

be my hero...

2009-02-27T03:54:00.003-06:00

minsan naitanong ng isang ka-officemate kay manong guard..

"kuya, ilang beses bang mainlove ang tao?"

ang sagot ni manong guard?

"dalawang beses, iha.."

ohh meee..is he sure??lolz..
naguguluhan ako..minsan akala ko kasi isang beses lang..at minsan naman maraming beses..
tapos talagang specific answer, dalawang beses?..

at yun ba ang tinatawag nilang first love at true love?? eh pano yung affairs in between??
landian festival??

si manong guard eh me asawa na pero malayo sa pamilya..at hindi lang miminsan na nalilink siya sa ibang babae dito..

napapaisip ako ulit..kailan naman nangyari ang ikalawang beses ni manong guard??

si misis na ba ang ikalawang beses??o may ikalawang beses pa pagkatapos ni misis??

malulupit talaga ang mga lalaki..

****

p.s: hindi ito hater-post for boys agen..nakieavesdrop lang ako ke manong guard at amorie..
**winks..

bcoz i'm cool like that..

2009-02-24T01:00:00.003-06:00

ilang araw na rin akong nag-iisip ng kwentong pwede kong ilathala sa pahinang ito..pero kadalasan, kapag sinisimulan ko ng itipa ang mga titik, nag-uunahan sila sa pag-aalsa balutan palabas ng aking utak..ganon talaga siguro, kadalasan talaga nangyayari yun sa mga taong sobrang matatalino...yeah, i'm smart like that...sus, sige na, limitado lang kasi talaga ang pang-unawa ko sa iilang bagay at hindi ganoon kalawak ang aking imahinasyon..weee..in short, bogaloids ako..anong klaseng post ba ito..parang i-hate-myself-so-i'm-discriminating-it thingy...

sabi nga ni superg nung minsang hiningan ko siya ng ideya para sa post, porn na lang daw..acckkk..super lousy ako sa porn..wala kayong mahihita sakin..naalala ko noon, me suitor ako tapos inilagay niya pic ko sa friendster, ang caption eh holy kamasutra..natuwa ako siyempre at kinilig pa medyo..ang babaw ko talaga kasi.. kasing babaw nitong post ko..

so, pano yan..dalawang paragraphs na ang inaksya nyong basahin, baka kako pag pinatagal ko pa itong nonsense daldal na ito, eh hindi nyo na ako balikan..kakaloka yun..

sa mga panahong walang maisip ang tao tapos gustong gusto niyang magblog, tags at awards ang magiging kakampi niya..

kaya salamat ng marami ke mareng jhosel sa award na ipinasa niya sakin.

Heto ang rules..* Put the logo on your blog or post. * Nominate at least 10 blogs which show great Attitude and/or Gratitude! * Be sure to link to your nominees within your post. * Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog. * Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.

at dahil kasing dyosa ko kayo..eto sa inyo..

1. azul--kasing inlab ko..

2. duberkat --kasing kyut ko..

3. lizeth --kasingtalentado ko..

4. yanah --kasing ganda at kasing inspiring ko.

5. venus --kasing everything ko..

6. winkie --kasing talino ko..

7. darling --kasing rakista ko..

sana ay tanggapin nyo ito ng buong puso at kaluluwa at patuloy nating itayo ang bandera ng ating mga alindog..

mabuhay tayong lahat mga chikababes!!!!

***

who am i

2009-02-20T02:21:00.012-06:00

ayan..ang gandang ganda..pinilit ko pa talaga si mr. marlon na gawan ako nito..kaya milyon milyong salamat sa kanya kahit pa ginawa niyang lalaki ang aking gender..ayan o..pagkalaking MR...ahehehe..di bale na..kamukha ko naman si eva fonda sa id na ito..weee...

at dahil medyo napilit din akong gumawa ng tag ni supergulaman..ahaha..ok fine..ako ang namilit na itag niya ako..at sa dahilang sobrang feeling close na siya sa akin, gagawin ko na ng bukal sa kalooban..

para lang namang english composition ito sa formal theme nung grade four ako..sos, ang dali..ilista ko lang daw ang mga pangalang tawag sa akin..at ang mga multong tumatawag sa akin nito..so?..let's get it on...

1. vanessa --ang dyosang pangalan ng inyong lingkod na tawag ng mga taong masyadong pormal at gustong magpakapropesyunal gaya nina teacher at bosskie..

2. vanvan --kung saan ako sanay at kung saan madalas akong mapagkamalang dodong..tawag ng mga taong tinatawag kong kaibigan..

3. teban --shortcut ng ate van na madalas tawag ng aking mga subordinates sa bahay at mga taong masyadong conscious sa kanilang mga edad na kahit ilang buwan lang ang tanda ko sa kanila eh kung gumalang parang kumare ko lola nila..

4. vantoi, vansot, vaning, vanini --nekneknames na tawag ng mga taong iba ang likaw ng bituka at iba ang takbo ng isip at walang magawa sa buhay kaya pangalan ko ang madalas pagdidiskitahan..

5. churva --bagong binyag kong pangalan dito sa kwadradong lungga ng mga kapitalista..madalas daw kasi akong magchurva... as in tumae...aheheh..palatae ako tas hindi pa talaga early in the morning kundi in the middle of the day..

6. bangbang --tawag ng aking landlord at boardmates sa boarding house na nilayasan ko dahil sobrang strik mag-impose ng curfew..

7. butod --pangalan ko sa phonebook ni ex labs..tsk..tsk..

8. bezz, bestoy --tawag ni bestfriend girl at bestfriend boy..

9. bebee --endearment namin ni banana..dalawang taon mahigit na rin akong nasasanay sa tawag na ito...at sana forever na nga..

10. honeypie --bagong tawag ni banana sa akin--tinatawag ko siyang banana dahil ang sagwa kung talong..at tinatawag niya akong honeypie dahil masagwa rin kung bibingka.....shhhhh...

ayan ha super g..nagawa ko na ang obligasyon ko sayo..ehhh..nakalimutan kong naitag din ako ni markey ng ten things about me..tamad akong gumawa non kaya markey, pumili ka na lang ng sampu dyan sa naisulat kong 25 things about me..hehehe..and in return eh, tag kita nito markey ha???

*************

nailabas na ang november 2008 nle results at nais kong icongratulate ang lahat ng mga pumasa..ayan, sa wakas nagbunga na rin ang mga utang ng inyong nanay..ang mga magdamagang pag-aral, ang walang kamatayang e.r at d.r at ang lahat lahat na..hindi ako masyadong makarelate sa karerang ito..

at syempre sa mga kaibigan kong super deserving sa tinatamasang kaligayahan ngayon..sana eh, walang magbago..wag lumaki ulo at ang paa??sa lupa dapat yan..unti unti nang nabubuo ang mga ulap ng ating mga pangarap..pasasaan ba't aabot din tayo sa buwan..at magniningning..

friends forever pa rin tayo ha..

missin u still...

2009-02-17T05:14:00.006-06:00

medyo naging silent ang beauty ko this past few days..eh kasi naman, ninamnam kong maigi ang araw ng mga puso higit pa ang araw ng aming mga nag-iibigang puso ni banana..

kaya kahit million miles away ang dramarama ng tadhana namin sa mga panahong ito, nilakbay ko ang libo libong kilometro at nakisiksik sa bus ng higit anim na oras, isama mo pa doon ang pagdaan ko sa mga masukal na daan ng lanao del norte kung saan sa mga liblib na gubat sa mga gilid niyon nandoon nagkukuta ang mga hayok na MILF...of course, kahit alien pa iyon o MAFIA, susugurin iyon ng inyong superwoman na lingkod para lamang sa kanyang minamahal..at yun nga..sa mismong araw ng mga puso, ang pinakakyut na magsing irog eh nabigyan ng pagkakataong maipadama sa isa't isa ang katangi tanging valentine's day..

lolz..hindi siya super bonggang valentine's date ha..gusto ko lang talaga magpacorny..eh, sa inlove ako masyado eh...

...ayan oh, PROOF!!!

eheheh..so bago pa mag-evaporate ang valentine's spirit...nais kong ibuhos ang lahat ng aking pagnanasa (what a word!) hahahaha...sa lalaking pinakaiingat ingatan ko..
salamat kay mareng jhosel sa pagkakataong ibinigay sa akin upang magsisigaw sa blogosper!

iiiiiiii lllllllllluuuuuuuuuuuvvvvvvvvvvv uuuuuuuuuuu baaaannnnnaaaaaannnnaaaaaa!

so, balik tarbaho na agad...meron na naman kaming external audit at nagkakandarapa na naman ang beauty ko sa pagsagot sa kanilang mga queries at questions...buti nalang ang kukyut nila...in fairness, CPAs at very young age..hmmpf..yun ang pangarap ng nanay ko para sa akin...pero, never mind..

pagod na ako...i wanna get out of here, very soon..

can i shoout again???

.........AARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maganda ako.

2009-02-11T05:33:00.004-06:00

nakuha ko ang tag na ito sa usong sosyal networking ngayon..facebook..at dahil feel ko masyadong makiuso sa kung anong meron ang pangkalahatan, naki go na rin ako sa pamosong bagay na ito..

pero dahil hindi naman talaga ako masyadong lulong sa bisyong tinatawag nilang facebook, naisipan kung ipamukadkad ang tag na ito dito kung saan alam kung makakakuha ako ng mas kapaki pakinabang na sagot..eh, mga henyo at komik mga kalahi ko dito eh..

so, ano pa ang ating hinihintay, laglagan na!!!..

25 random things about me..

1. i am a proud MSUan
----d nyo alam kung anong MSU ano???problema nyo na yan..

2. i took bs accountancy in college just because the registrar said so..
---gusto ko talaga kasi computer engineering pero dahil naubusan ako ng slot, at feel ng registrar-slash-kababayan ko eh napakahenyo ko sa matematiks, ayun..

3. bumagsak ako sa math 1 noong 1st year college ako..
----waa, i prove the registrar wrong..at ako lang ang katangi tanging bumagsak sa klase..algebra kasi yon at dati paman ay umuusok na ang butsi ko sa x x x na yan..

4. my parents had been separated since i was 5.
---medyo senti part...pero oks lang..magkapitbahay lang naman kami ng tatay ko hanggang ngayon at pareho sila ni mader na walang family of their own, at kapag naman nagyari iyon ay guguho ang mundo..mag-aamok ako for sure..

5. i don't know how to swim, even to float.
---sabi ng friend ko na redcross trainee, me mga tao daw talaga na sinker..hindi nagfofloat..ngunit kadalasan naman daw na ganoon eh nakakalipad...sos! naniwala ka naman..

6. i am a mid lister kind of person
---alam ko delikado ako dito pero ayaw ko lang talaga sa extremes..

7. i am a hopeless romantic girl.
---and i am very much in love with my banana..ay teka, alam nyo na yun eh!

8. i am a certified homebuddy.
---i find the couch much interesting than roads and the bed much entertaining than bars.

9. i had a total of 9 boylets..
----that includes boyfriends and boyflings...ooopss, wait! i think i lost count.

10. i had a nokia 6510 for a cellphone.
---oo nah, napakalowtech non, tapos pes awt pa xa ngayon...dati ko pa iyong cellphone at di xa magiba giba talaga.

11. the only online game i had an account with is conquer.
---my character's name is BONSAI, and i only played it once.

12. minsan sa aking buhay ay naghabol ako ng lalaki.
---at pinagsisihan ko iyon ng bonggang bongga..enough said.

13. i never learned sports.
---kalahi ko si juan tamad at ni minsan ay hindi ko naisipang magbanat ng buto for my well-being..so sad..

14. i wanted to be a writer.
---pero wala akong kapasidad.too bad

15. i never tried drugs and never will..
---pero nung nabasa ko minsan ang macarthur ni bob ong, muntikan ko nang itry..why??kakatouch kaya ang buhay addict.

16. i tried cigar once.
--black cat galing sa friend ng sissy ko.iniwan sa aming boarding house..ayun, nilaklak namin.

17. i love the province.
--nothing beats home sweet home..gusto ko rin namang iexplore ang world but at the end of the day, i just want home.

18. my first sweet dance was "walking in the rain" by a1.
---3rd year hs js prom kasama si first lab..waaaa...kinikilig pa rin ako???!!!

19. my first movie trip with banana was zsa zsa zaturnah..
---panahon iyon ng mmff..tas puno ang enteng kabisote at kasal, kasali, kasalo..no choice.

20. i collect autographs way back elementary and highschool days.
---at kapag binabalik balikan ko ang mga yon, puro "just see me in person" at "many to mention" ang nababasa ko.

21. i want twins for kids.
---dapat boy and girl..and they would be kent and savannah.

22. i love brad pitt
---ayoko na kay piolo, i found out how man brad pitt was noon pinanood ko ang ocean's thirteen..
waa..how i wish i was angelina jolie.

23. my favorite book is harry potter's.
---ayoko ng twilight, me pdf ako pero echapwera..

24. i am a loan's bookkeepper at a certain bank.
---nakakapagod..sobra

25. maganda ako.
---no explanations needed.

ayan, gusto kung i tag ang mga minamahal kong bloggers.

supergulaman
lizeth
epfi
azul
lordcm
duberkat
lio loco
jhosel
paperdoll
kosa

at kayong lahat na nasa blogroll ko..

maiintidihan ko kung di nyo gagawin pero gawin nyo nah...OA naman kayo..

lolz

2009-02-08T01:49:00.003-06:00

medyo ang dami dami na kasing love post na kumakalat ngayon sa blogosphere..inaabuso na ang feb-ibig month. kakatuwang basahin, kakatuwang isipin. sa dinami dami ng mg maiinit na topic na umiikot sa sanlibutan ng blogging world, ang love topic talaga ang common denominator ng mga kasing talino kong bloggers. kasi, kahit gaano sila kalakas magmura sa kani kanilang mga posts, at kahit gaano nila ipinaglalaban ang mga bagay bagay na feeling nila ay tama, umiibig pa rin sila at gumagawa ng love posts..waaa..kasing adik ko talaga..medyo, nakagawa na rin ako ng love post para sa aking banana..hindi pa enough iyon, pero right now, di pa ako makaisip ng mga eksaktong flowery words para isalarawan ang aming pag-iibigan..pakiabangan na lamang, later..

nais kong icongratz ang mga fellow bloggers ko sa kani kanilang mga love posts..i had a good time checking it out..

ngview ang ex boylet ko saking fs..so, wala siguro siyang date at naisipan niyang mgview..buti nga sayo..kala, ang gwapo gwapo..pweee...lolz..--ang bitter at ang loser naman pakinggan..

ang gwapo kaya ng banana ko..kasing gwapo niya si piolo pascual pero di kasing bakla..lolz..

***medyo pissed off na naman ako these days..as usual, sa work..i'm currently having a boil at my left eye, sabi ng check up, overfatigue daw..tas infected pa..

someone asked for a load last week, parang nag beg talaga siya, dahil medyo friends friends naman kami, i sent her a load thru gcash worth 20p lang naman..yun kasi yung hiningi niya. tas 10 minutes after, hingi siya ng another 20p..ngpromise, cross my heart, hope to die pa siya na babayaran niya yon..and then two days after that, i ringed her..unattended na ang bruha..

naku!kakainis..alam ko 40p lang iyon, hindi naman ako ganid para tapusin ang aming pagkakaibigan ng dahil sa 40p na load..marami akong load, hindi ko kailangan ang 40p na yon..ang nakakagilalas lang, she made a promise..kontodo promise pa..kun sanay ng-explain siya na hindi siya makakapay back..di okay..i will understand..sa lahat ng ayoko, yung pinapangakoan ako..tas mawawala lang like bubbles..kainis..sa yo na yung 40p..and don't ever make a promise again..

**hindi talaga ako masyadong nakakapag-isip these days..alam ko na napakawalang kabuluhan ng post kong ito..kung inaksaya niyo man ang inyong golden time para pasahan ng basa ang bonggang post na ito, iiyak ako sa tuwa..

i am a superwoman

2009-02-04T06:20:00.003-06:00

When God finished the creation of Adam he stepped back, scratched his head and said, "I can do better than that."

at kami yon!!boohooo...

OK..OK..this is not a hater post for boys..i just feel so superwoman today..

sige, babawi ako..

rule#1: boys are nothing but trouble..

rule#2: i love them anyway..

igat!

spare me agen..still in random..

victims of love

2009-02-01T05:48:00.002-06:00

i have long forgotten the issues on my past lovers until i had a good chat with my chikabebs..medyo naungkat ang aming mga ex boylets at napaisip ako. ang dami na nga pala nila ano?lolz. uso din naman kasi ang boyplends noon. lalo na noong kasibulan ng aming pagdadalaga. kapag naman kasi nagkaboyfriend ang iyong mga friends, brought by peer pressure ay magboyfriend ka na rin. hindi iyon ang tamang behavior, pero ganoon kami at ganoon kadalasan ang ang mga bagets.

mas matanda ng dalawang taon ang aking first boyplend at nagtagal lamang kami ng isang buwan. ang tanging memory na naalala ko sa kanya ay ang pagkakataong pinagawa ko siya sa aking molecular structure project sa chemistry. sa ngayon, hindi ko na alam kung buhay pa siya o nailibing na.

sunod kung naging boyplend ay aking firstlove. si labs. kaklase ko si labs at naging bestfriend muna bago niya napansin ang aking alindog at kariktan. madalas kaming magkatabi sa upuan at sabay kung umuwi. ako ang tagagawa ng assignment niya sa english at filipino at siya naman ang taga answer ng exams ko sa math at physics. dahil siguro sa dalas ng aming pagkikita, nagsawa kami sa isa't isa at tinapos ang lahat matapos ang isang taon. marami rin akong naging boyplends sa college pero no klaro.

hanggang sa makilala ko si banana--ang aking one true love . masaya ako pero hindi ko alam kung hanggang kelan ang happiness na ito. noon pa man ay ayoko ng maraming lalaki sa buhay, lamang ay hindi natin hawak ang pagkakataon. di naman pwedeng talian natin ang mga leeg ng mga gwapitong iyan at lalong hindi natin dapat pilitin ang ating mga sarili kung hindi na tayo masaya.

maraming mga problemang dulot ng pag-ibig ang nakasurround sa akin ngayon. hindi personal kung problema kundi mga problema ng mga taong konti rin ay mahalaga sa akin.

nandyan si not-so-close friend na nakipagtanan sa kanyang labedabs at dahil in denial ang kanyang mother sa nagawang pag-alsa balutan ng kanyang anak ay nagsampa ng kasong rape sa syota ng daughter.

si male berks na saka pa lamang tinext ng kanyang jowa na aalis na ito patungong italy, sa mismong araw ng pag-alis nito.

si frend na nakabuntis ng iba ang syota niya.

samo't saring kwento ng pag-ibig. may mga nabulag. may mga tumanggi sa grasya. may mga nadapa. may mga nadapa at bumangon. may mga nadapa, bumangon at nadapa ulit. may swerte. may malas. may sumugal sa bawal. may mga napipilitan.

minsan na rin akong nasaktan.yeah! ngunit heto pa rin at di natuto. di bale na.

"kung may lalayo, may darating"

"first love never dies, but true love will bury it alive"

p.s. ang mushy post na ito ay resulta ng pressure sa trabaho. may external audit kami bukas...tsadan!

ebony and ivory

2009-01-29T05:24:00.005-06:00

i have never felt more pressured in my entire life until today. i felt like crying. work has been miserable. the last time i decided to get into work, i only thought of earning money not this helly feeling.

the first months of work has been easy that i often tell myself, "i'm too smart for this. it is not like i can't do my part, i just feel overused..hahaha.. ganon. nung una, lahat sila pinapayuhan ako, "walk extra mile..dapat matuto ka ng ibang trabaho para maging flexible ka" yun daw kasi yung key for easier promotion, etc.etc. at akong si trying hard, learn naman ng learn. believing that they were helping me out reach for that star. tapos, etong huli, nafefeel ko na lang, inaabused na ako. ung mga parte na dapat sila ang gumagawa ay ako na. dahil bagito ako sa institusyong ito, wala akong magawa kundi ang maging sunod sunuran at pagkatapos ay maglabas ng emotions sa mga taong nabingi na ata sa aking mga sentimyento.

i have been earning money ever since i was in college. ng on-the-job training ako as office assistant sa accounting department ng department of agriculture provincial office at dahil medyo juana tamad at laos sa technology ang mga peepz doon ay napilitan akong mag extend ng service at magpart time job na umabot ng higit sa isang taon. at ngayon nga ay ubos ubos ang aking energy, plus i'm getting attached pa to my avon business. nakakaloka. yun ang point. pagod ako pero gusto ko ng pera. siguro nasanay na ako mula pa. grumaduate kasi ako sa highschool na may medal of excellent service dahil buong highschool akong tresurera. kaya siguro kahit bobo ako sa math ay naitaguyod ko ng maayos ang aking accountancy career. sayang lang at binore to death ako ng aming audit theory professor at bigla ay nawala ang gana kong maging c.p.a...
siguro ay magbubunga rin ang kasipagang ito. sana nga lang ay sa mas madaling panahon at nang di ko maiwagayway ang puting bandila ng wala sa panahon. hindi ako ang tipong susuko lalo na at ako naman ang makikinabang sa huli. minsan lang, nahihurt din ako.

anyways, my friends and i discovered something amazing and fun at the middle of the bukid..

i just found out yesterday na ang ebony at ivory ay terms pala ng black and white..too bad..too shameful..

i'm confused..wait!..maybe i'm not..

2009-01-24T05:17:00.006-06:00

kasalukuyang nakikibuno sa pahina ng jobstreet.com para sa bagong kapalaran. mas magandang kapalaran. me trabaho na ako but damn! i'm not happy. lolz. medyo happy but far from being contented. ganun ang mga tao at ganun ako dahil tao ako..

minsan tinawagan ako ng synnex concentrix formerly known as linktosupport cagayan de oro branch. tinanong ang aking pangalan at kung feel ko daw ba mag call center agent.. i said no at the instant.. i told them pa, "i never applied for the agent position, i applied for the accounting assistant and operation analyst positions"..at siguro nagalit si caller kaya biglang sinabi "okay, have a nice day"..

matagal na akong nag-apply through jobstreet sa ahensyang iyon at nang mapansin ang beauty ko ay sa pagiging call center agent pa ako ififit-in.. no offense meant pero hindi ko kaya ang graveyard shift nilang sinasabi..naniniwala pa rin ako na mas masarap matulog sa gabi kesa sa umaga.

kaya eto, dahil nabawasan na ang aking mga job prospects, hinalungkat ko na naman ang baul ng jobstreet at sana lang ay may mahagilap na sagot sa aking mga pangarap..wala naman ako masyadong high qualifications para sa job, gusto ko nang trabahong maglalapit sa akin ke banana--ang lalaking nagcocolor ng aking world.. hehehe..two years mahigit na rin kami at ayokong mahulog lang sa wala ang aking mga pinagpaguran..pero alam ko rin ang mga negative possibilities ngunit hanggat may magagawa, ay gagawin..

isa pa sa mga sentimyento ko sa trabaho ay ang mga buhay buhay ng aking mga co..alam kung wala ako sa posisyon upang makialam, pero talagang komplikado sila eh..

*si mrs. a--naging textmate si mister february 4, nag-eyeball july 17 at nagpakasal september 8..
*si badz--naging textmate din si mister, nag-eyeball at sa ikalawang pag-aeyeball ay namanhikan na..
*si love--textmate din si future mister, ng-eyeball, two weeks after the first eyeball ay ng-eyeball ulit at nagkasundong magpapakasal in the near six months or more..

whirlwind romances or love at first sight or maybe..

ayoko sa ganun..fave part ko kasi ang getting to know each other portion at ang long engagement process..pero sabi ko nga buhay nila iyon at buhay ko rin ito..

pinanood ko ang inaguaration ni obama at first time ko iyon. hindi ko pinanood ang kay fvr kahit kaapelyido niya ang mama ko; hindi kay erap kahit nakita ko na siya in person at lalong hindi kay glorya dahil busy ako non..

"america is greater than our selfish ambitions"

naks, kahit kailan ambisyon lang ng pinas ang states..

***

*a boyfriend who wanted to be a model pala and signed in for ginoong enhenyero 2009..
*every two-hour blackout with matching sira na generator..
*message sending failed status ng globe..
*early dinner with friends sa kan-anan sa balsa at 4pm with xtian's crosswind and me and gideon taking the bus for i'll be out at 5pm pa..
*vince's life chapter 2, getting over andrea,have baby will date, and for one more day..
*and my 2months sideline business which is doing good..

wohoo..way to go!!

ano na?

2009-01-13T06:01:00.002-06:00

tinamaan na ng lintik ang cagayan de oro city..nakakatakot..nakakapanibago..sanay kami na pinapanood ang ibang lalawigan sa mga karumaldumal na haplos ng kalikasan ngunit ang malamang isang milya na lamang ang pagitang ng cdo sa aming lalawigan ay nakakapanindig balahibo.. ibang lebel kung magalit ang inang kalikasan, warak!..

sa kabilang dako, binomba naman ng nampotang mga MILF ang dalawang tore ng kurente sa lanao del norte. hay buhay, kaya eto kami ngayon, every two hours blackout/brownout. nakakawalang gana magtrabaho. ang ingay pa ng generator. maiintindihan ko pa si mother nature pero ang mga lintik na abnoy na MILF na un..neber!..di tuloy ako mkapaggala sa cyberworld..

nasan kana volta?!

♥

nagbalik na ang paborito kung blogger..ilang araw ko din siyang inabangan. at pinakamaganda dun, ngcomment pa siya sa post ko..sikat ako!

muntik na akong mawalan ng special someone..buti na lang ang ganda ko, di niya ako mabitiwan..hehehe..

*ipagdasal po nating ang cdo.nandun po ang mga minamahal ko sa buhay...

pasiuna.

2009-01-04T01:32:00.000-06:00

balik siyudad na naman ang aking mga kapatiran at kabagang..tuloy isa na namang nakakabinging katahimikan ay namamayani sa aming bukirin.. muntikan na nga akong bumunghalit ng iyak ng ihatid ko ng tanaw ang maliit na bus na maghahatid sa kanila sa mapang-akit na siyudad.. naalala ko ang kahapon, noong kabilang pa ako sa mga nakikipagsiksikan at nakikipag-unahan sa bus para lamang makarating sa patutunguhan at makibuno sa kolehiyo.ngunit ngayong tapos na ako sa pahinang iyon, eto at naiiwan ako sa aking lupang sinilangan at kumikita ng sariling pera. nakikibaka sa araw araw na transakyon sa banko at nakikiharap sa iba't ibang uri ng tao. minsan naiisip ko, ang gulo ng buhay. noon, halos batakin ko ang mga araw para lamang mapadali ang pagtatapos ng pag-aaral..ngayon naman, kung pwede lamang ibalik ang panahon ay gagawin ko para lamang manamnam balik ang buhay estudyante..

nagiging couch potato na ako lately. minsan nanood ako ng transformers sa hbo mga bandang ala una ng madaling araw at habang nasa rurok na ako ng kagandahan ng pelikula biglang ngblue ang buong screen.palingat lingat ako sa ibang channel natakot sa mga pangyayari at ng mahimasmasan ako ay napaisip..nampoocha! lintek na cable..kaya yun tiniis ko na lamang ang maglurat ng mata sa nakakabulag na bughaw na screen..at nang mahimasmasan ay pinilit sugpuin ang insomnia na gumapi sa aking sangkatauhan..tiniis ang ungol nang mga wakwak na aso at ng mga nalilibog na mga pusa.. kakaloka ang buhay sa nayon para akong hindi nasanay..

muntik na rin akong inumaga sa kapapanood ng pepot artista sa cinema one kagabi..at talagang adik ako sa indiefilm..galing at sulit talaga..alam kung matagal na ang pelikulang ito pero hindi ko na rin siguro kasalanan kung malayo ako sa kabihasnan at sa mga sinasabi nilang cinemalaya at kung ngayon lang siya ipinalabas ng nasabing chanel.. matagal tagal ko na ring inaabangan ang numbalikdiwa pero noong naipalabas na ay inunahan naman ako ng takot..hayun at pinili ang berdeng mundo ng temptation island..buti na lamang at may replay ngayong jan.17. sana naman ay hindi ako traydorin ng aking memorya.

kakaadik. alas dos ng hapon ko pa sinimulan kung simulan ang blog na ito pero ala siyete na nang simulan kung tapusin. nakalimutan ko kasi na magpopost pala ako. sabog na ako sa pet society ng facebook. gusto kung yumaman doon pero hindi ko magawa at hindi ko alam kung paano. bobita talaga.

wala pa rin akong new year's resolution..ayokong magpapayat kahit taba ako..pakialam nila..kala mo ang gaganda! at ayokong magtipid, marami kaya akong pera. dali lang naman kitain nun..dali ring waldasin.

adios!

uno!dos!tres!..vamos!

2008-12-31T07:00:00.000-06:00

a new year is about to begin..and what exactly should i feel..nakakatakot, sa totoo lang..i am a bias believer of the so-called yearly predictions..pero sabi nga, nasa DIOS ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa..so, kanya-kanyang diskarte na lamang etech..di hamak naman akong LA RASA VALIENTE...but for my peace of mind and for my colleagues na rin..i researched my next year's prediction according to some chinese vision..at eto po iyon..

The Rabbit (1915, 1927, 1939, 1951, 1963, 1975, 1987, 1999) can look forward to a better in 2009 Year of the Ox because of the number of stars of relationships shining on him in the year of the Ox. After going through many changes like reunions, separations, heated arguments and changing jobs, things will be more stable and favorable for him.

The star of Harmony Yue De symbolizes excellent human relationships and it can turn dangers into opportunities. This means that the Rabbit will be having people around him taking good care of him and supporting all his needs. The star Sui He is a star that represents harmony between spouses. This star can also help the Rabbit get support from his supervisors and/or superiors as well as from elderly family members.

Two stars, Tao Hua and Xian Chi, which are stars of Love Luck are working together to make the Rabbit be more attractive and charming than ever before. For married Rabbits however, it is advised that they practice extreme caution and try hard to resist temptations. Because with the two stars shining on them, they might be overwhelmed by people who will show interest in them, no matter what their gender maybe, or else they might become involved in love triangles. These people will do anything just to please them. For Single Rabbits, it is a good year to pursue that love interest because there is a good chance that they will be accepted.

Lastly, the stars Xiao Hao and Si Fu are two stars that the Rabbit should be aware of and take extra caution with. Because Xia Hao represents minor financial loss, which could be brought about by the money spent in entertaining more friends and lovers. Si Fu on the other hand represents an elderly male family member who might suffer from health which should be given special attention to.

my xmas was not the one super inexpect kung maging.. i had a bad flu and cough and fever..as in uber yayay..i didn't complete my 9 mornings and add up that i wasn't able to attend the misa de gallo..kakabadtrip..sana lang maging super exciting ang batch reunion this 29th..

my banana and i will be turning two years this 28..kakaloka..ang tagal na namin pero super duper in love pa rin ako..lolz..but i got some nega hearsays about two-year relationships..it would be in second year that shakes and troubles would come abound..hayz, pinipilit kung maging positive about it..at kung hindi man, sana lang maging ready akong magblog about broken hearts..eh, ganon naman talaga ang buhay..

i checked my yahoomail just now and found out 256 new mails..well, they were just updates and regular digests from my BOB ONG Yahoo groups and some jobstreet alerts..and my first epostcard from BAMBITA--kakaloka ka Bambita, you never missed to amazed me in littlest way you can..and super touch ako ha..

and from jobstreet.com

anyways, even if santa didn't come..siguro eh, naligaw..i had the merriest of christmas and hopefully the happiest of new year..

i still don't have my final list for upcoming year's resolution..cguro more love..more fun..less sin..

there were plans for tangub escapade sana but then things complicate people and people complicate things which ended up to nada as in zero escapade na lang.. we were planning to attack tangub city today december 26 but ninang bebot has their family reunion today and tomorrow and some wedding events to attend to at the 28th..sa 29 at 30 nalang daw..eh, may duty kaya ako nun..ayoko kaya na hindi ako nasasali so patas patas ang lahat..walang tangub tour na magaganap..bleeeehhhh!

medyo napataas ang blog ko noh..feeling ko kasi..pang last entry ko ito ds 2008..so para sulit sulit siya, sabihin ko na lahat ng gusto kung sabihin..hehehe..

i changed my layout..pangpreparation sa new year..at pati sa fs..hindi naman xa totally changed kasi nagamit ko na yun at namiss ko bigla..buti nalang at nakita ko pa xa sa dinami dami ng new layouts..

"hindi ako suplada, di lang talaga ako interesado sayo"
--ganyan ang fs layouts ko..ang taray dbah..

ayan, at wala na tuloy akong masabi..

so pano..kitakits sa year 2009..sana ay sama sama parin tayo sa lakbay ng buhay..

marahil ay samot saring bagay ang naibahagi ng 2008 sa buhay buhay natin, pero kung ano man yon..mantakin mong nakatayo ka pa rin..chin up, chest out at stomach in..

kaya, wag kalimutang magpasalamat at magpakatatag..

2009, eto na kami!!!

uno...

dos...

tres..

vamos!

macarthur.

2008-12-31T06:55:00.000-06:00

habang pinapapak ko sa aking kaisipan ang librong hindi nagpatulog sa akin ng nakaraang magdamag naalala ko ang aking highschool teacher na si mrs. bordios at ang kaniyang mga maaalam at makwelang kwento. isa sa mga naging paborito ko ay ang kwentong "ang kalupi".

alam ko kukunti lamang ang nakakaalam sa kwentong ito at ayaw kong magdaldal. likas naman talaga sa atin ang hindi mahilig sa sariling atin. nyetang ang mga batang masyadong mahilig sa twilight ay hindi nakakapatong kamay sa noli me tangere at el filibusterismo. pero teka nga lang muna, ano naman ang kinalaman nito ke macarthur? si macarthur ay isang nakakabilib na aklat ng batikang bob ong. ang ikatlong katangi tanging lalaki sa buhay ko kasunod ni banana at piolo pascual. wag kang epal. mahal ko si piolo. pakialam ko kung bakla siya.

back to macarthur. eto na ang pinakapaborito kung aklat so far.
ang kwento ng mga sabog, ng mga kawatan, ng mga salot sa lipunan. kwento ng mga takot, mga mahihinang loob, ng mga nangangailangan ng kalinga. kwento ng mga walang swerte sa buhay, ng mga kakambal ng malas, ng mga sinuwerte man ay sinayang din. kwento ng mga ayaw magbago, gustong mgbago pero di magawa, gustong magbago pero di alam kung saan at paano magsisimula, gustong magbago at huli man at magaling ay nakakahabol din.

hindi ako sabog pero damang dama ko ang kwento. siguro dahil bawat isa sa atin ay sabog sa kanya kanyang isyus ng ating mga buhay buhay. o di kaya'y adik ako noong past life ko. kung nagkataon, ako na ang pinakacute na sabog. madalas ang mga ganitong kwento ang magpapamukha ng matinding realisasyon. na para bang binuhusan ka ng super duper lamig na tubig ngunit nag-aapoy ka naman sa pawis. hindi mo alam kung maaawa ka sa kanila o magagalit ngunit siguradong masasaktan ka.

di nga ba't problema talaga eto ng lipunan. pero ano bang magagawa ko kundi ang magdaldal at maki bob ong sa mga isyus na ganito..hay buhay..

makiquote na nga lang ke pareng bob...

"

dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral, pag di mo pagtitiyagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit, sobrang lugi".

“Mga bata pa kayo. Pag pinaniwalaan naming kayong hindi kayo naglaro sa tubig kahit basang-basa ang mga damit ninyo, kayo ang niloloko namin. Hindi kayo ang nakakapanloko.”

so good i'm crying..

2008-10-01T00:25:00.000-05:00

i deleted a post here because he said so..he didn't like the idea that i mentioned some other guys in //selowsow\\..we turned 21 months yesterday..it is a record..nyahaha..i beat his record, he beats mine...and we're happy..yahooo!!!!though di kami ngkasama..he celebrated the day with an exam..and i watched a.s.a.p for my dose of papa p /laugh=)..(^--^)cry..i remember the times we spent together..yea!whatever...

it is iligan's fiesta today...*sigh..wish i was there to celebrate..i miss mugna and the likes..haaaayyy..the end of ramadhan is fast approaching..i wonder what to expect..grrr...i'm a bit afraid, though...my traveling spree would come to its halt..the holidays would be spent for more work..kakaloka..i'm fat..and i can't resist foods..so help me god...

month-end means hell...i'm gonna be doing monthly reports but i haven't had any single idea on how to make them...poor me..i hope i'll get through this fast...

---had always been vocal on the euphorias i had these past days, but darn it, i'm still alively kicking and eagerly waiting for some goddam plurks to come..i wish they'd come as fast as lightning and go as easy as a-b-c..

i'm dreaming a lot these days..

***i wish for a dog, and i'll name him COFFEE..

***a beach wedding..most probably along siquijor shores...

***twin kids--they'll be KENT and SAVANNAH..

***a book of my own..i'll have it "the ragged doll"...

***a night-out with msu batch 2004...

***a super night with ELLA--luv u!!!

***chowking again with JULIE and LUKEN..--i hope they remember the once..

it is better to be chained with friends than to be in a garden of strangers...

some thoughts to think about:

If money doesnt grow on trees, then why do banks have branches?
Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
Why doesnt glue stick to its bottle?
Why do you still call it building when its already built?
If its true that we are here to help others, then what are others here for?
If you arent supposed to drink&drive, why do bars have parking lots..

this is the most gasgas line of all time...but believe me..this helps..

live..love..and laugh..

i am >___<

2008-09-20T10:08:00.001-05:00

cyberspacing where i should be tipping my pretty hands on that adding machine for the ledger balance~~the audit team will be here by monday and so i am spending the rest of my supposed to be "free time" doing the work VOLUNTARILY..you think so i am workaholic, overused, tired, stressed and haggard???..well, you think right...there is this philosophy that promotions on government agencies matter on years of service but private companies on work performance..and so you know, i'm kicking off my own ass for that early promotion...<demonic lolz>..hahaha..of course not..

i miss the devils of studying..<demonic lolz again>..and procrastinating like theres no tomorrow..
..currently listening to david cook's billie jean..Billie jean is not my lover shes just a girl who claims that I am the one but the kid is not my son..>__< ..and what's with the man?? kelly clarkson was the ultimate american idol amongst those trying to be and yet david cook is about to get the throne---oh, ayt, he could be king and she could be queen...ayt!ayt!..i'm loving joe jonas♥ and piolo pascual♥..yeah ryt!!.. there's this bulletin at fs that tells of a free load from a site like ayrayt or whatevs..the step was so easy that it made me shiver down my spines..you just have to type in the number and afterwards the email address and the password of your e-add..i was done with that when they ask for the friendster account and password...ug didto ra daun ko nahikmata!!binuang to tanan..they could have hacked my accounts..stupid of me..they could have known the secrets of my secrets..good thing i was able to change my password before any hacking could have been done..i couldn't anyhows affirm that it was hacking chuchus but prevention is better than cure..hekhekhek...

..kaunting masaya..maraming hindi..kawawa naman ako..hindi pa talaga ako marunong magtagalog..i love speaking in tagalog..it bleeds me..*sigh..i am about to start fun moment in multiply and so i was tagging my friends with that parang survey but no one of them even dare make one..sabi pa ni luken..EI VAN. UNSAY TAG?...

..some hearts get broken..
and i had mine last night..wetwew!!nah, we haven't broke up..or anything~ ~we just text text ting couples of hours and then he slept without telling me.. that was around 9..ginerbyos ko kay basin naunsa xa..i kept making pa-ring his fone for two hours..and finally he woke up around 12..cge sori..but sadly, he just broke my heart...i know that was so mababaw..but sadly it pained my chest..and it flamed me..>___<..im keeping my cool now yet still in the healing process..>__<

..dahil kawawa ako ngayon..masyado akong sensitive..
i want a life..give me one!!

hay naku..buntung hininga..>_<

somewhere down yahoo mail

2008-09-08T05:45:00.000-05:00

***to briefly explain the complications of the title--i got this from yahoo mail..thanks sweety..you actually consider me as a friend..or is it???

anyways, anyhow..i've been obviously always blog
on how grateful i am with my friends..but i've never grown tired either..
that's definitely why people love to blog..because they could share a lot of good times, better times and best times with those they consider friends..ah oh---the fun never ceases to completely spells it..

--yeah, like you couldn't dare drag your mom when you want to stalk that oh-so-gwapo-boy-next-door somewhere there..
--who would listen to your mushy stories when you aren't allowed to get into romance yet..
--and bro and sissy would never peep in to class and let you have that algebra notes when exam sweats starts to flow in..

...that's probably what is
friendship is about..
when you want to be devilish, they could be your lucifer
and when you want to be that goody-goddam girl, they'd be niÑo..

***so back to my yahoo mail letter--
here it goes..

***

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your
turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or whether you are a lifetime.

***i attended a "SERVICE EXCELLENCE SEMINAR AND WESTERN UNION UPDATES" at 1st valley's business center at cdo last saturday..

it was brought to us by petnet and western union..
well, it was kinda fun..a bit of interactive and informative..

***these are all for now..i'm reading a paulo coelho book and haven't done with it so i'll blog it later on nalang..hahaha..
i'm so kapos of time na for my addictions..
life has really change..
and it's hard to adopt to it..
but nah, la-la-la-la..i should be happy nlang..
there's a lot of reasons to be..
**wink!!

..till my next...

updating...

2008-08-29T08:49:00.001-05:00

Build your own Blingee

updating...

2008-08-29T05:58:00.000-05:00

grrr..it's been long..should say i miss blogging..a lot has happened, actually..
and i'm super keen to jot them down in here though they're not really that attention-grabbing..

***i had the chance to visit iligan for my so called "requirements follow-up" (pde ra tana to pagadian..hehehe) and so, i was absent from work for two days--that was supposed to be the plan..since monday was a holiday, i was supposed to get back to buuglandia in that monday..
yet, after we took the 5.30 mass that sunday dusk, a dreadful news boomeranged the city..a certain traveler's inn and caprice inn was bombed..--those inns were near gaisano.. and there were hundreds of bomb threats for iligan before that..tsk.tsk..
..and so that started the infamous MILF-attack-Lanao issues..
..i'm not gonna elaborate such wicked assaults..

basta, i wasn't able to go home that monday because there weren't any trips bound for zamboanga..

text..text..text..

vanvan: kuya eding, vanvan ni..pde absent ko ugma kay wa jud byahe padung dra kay gagubot ang lanao (as if wa cla kabalo)..paningkamotan nako nga mkabyahe ko ugma..
edmans: ok. amping mo dra kay basin torjakon mo sa MILF..hehe

after 5 minutes..

edmans: van, unsa to ako nabalitaan nga gkan daw mo sa traveller's inn..5 mins lang jud daw mo kagawas, niboto na daun xa..nakit-an ka namo sa tv..hehehe..

grgrgrrrrrr...bantay lang jud kang edinga ka!!!

***i am now hating pgma..i used to be a solid fan of the pandak but this MILF chu-chus made me realize she's just another selfish, insatiable, addict bitch..and oh, how else could i forget her pig of a husband..

" HAVE YOU HEARD OF BEDCO--BANGSAMORO ECONOMIC DEVELOPMENT COUNCIL??..THAT IS SOMETHING THE MILF IS BOUND TO CREATE THAT'S WHY THEY ARE SO EVIL TO ATTACK THE REST OF MINDANAO..THAT'S APPROXIMATELY WORTH 2 BILLION DOLLARS AND 40% OF THAT GOES TO THE MISCHIEVOUS COUPLE'S POCKETS..IMAGINE, SHE IS SELLING US TO THE MILFs"

***i'm into economic and nation issues now..wetwew! gone were the days when all i know of are cardcaptor sakura and g-mik..bye bye paper dolls..hello world!!!ÜÜ

***before i go on with much much deeper issues let me welcome bumbee a.k.a thea a.k.a huggybear..she promised me she'd be reading my entries...i'm not as good as ennui of multiply..nyahaha..magcompare jud..but i also promised i'll be posting a lot like myself..

fyi--believe me bum, i'm little miss shy..☺☺
hope to see more of you here..

where the hell are you???

2008-08-10T01:18:00.000-05:00

i don't want to blog sana today because i don't have anything to post..but since the roots of boring-ness starts to crumple my whole being, let me at least express my wanton moments..

someone asked my help for today..that's why even in brood sunday afternoon, i'm here at the bank..but sadly..

asa naman siya!!
unsa iyang plano??
pahulaton ko diri hangtod molurat na akong kalimotaw..

ginoo, hikapa ang iyang kasingkasing
ug igiya siya sa among sabot..

ggrrr..

dili bottomless ang akong pasensiya..
humanda!!!

metamorphosis: if only i have a choiceÜ

2008-08-09T02:42:00.000-05:00

>>got this amazing pics from someone who used to be my kababayan..i never had the chance to ask permission for this pics coz i couldn't wait..i so damn love to post it..i pray head over heels she wouldn't get mad..just love to show off how adorable she is and how wonderful life is..

...i had a terrible tiring week..terrible at all ends..terribly happy, terribly lonesome..terribly disappointed..
i had the chance to visit my single mom friends..and their babies..
it is a moment to ponder on..
times ago, we've been burning heels roaming around for a good place and a good talk..
and now, they're obligated to be at home..and though sometimes, they be given free will to spend life outside with friends, people notice and comment--and mind you, they are not good comments...
well, that is exactly what i am thinking every time i possibly think of settling down..
people would tie rope on my neck..
and whenever i find out that a friend is getting married..i'd have wedding blues for them..
it is tiring enough to think of yourself alone..what more when you think for other people..
think..think..think..

methamorphosis:
because the babies are now ladies and are having babies..

whhhhaaattt????

it ain't easy working for money..
especially if you're not used to it..
tired..

i'm not gonna die if i don't go working..
but the fact that i am in my responsible age and responsible mind pushes me to work for myself..

how pathetic and how admirable..

it disgusts me when people start talking about other people..
most especially when they're far from being perfect..
judgmental lot!!
if you can't change your attitude...watch your mouth..

the armm's election is going on..
bomb threats are at mass..
where is the love??

i happen to watch the Beijing Olympics opening last night..

go team philippines..
though pacquiao was like having difficulty bearing the flag, you can't really help but feel proud..amidst all the nation's crisis, pinoy rocks!!!

china is china..
Über..

in the beginning, God made the earth and heaven, and the rest was made in china..

lotsa love

♥♥♥

the poetry in meÜand the b*tchiness..

2008-07-30T07:00:00.000-05:00

my cousin asked me the other night to make him a five-line poem about sun--an English homework..i wasn't at my poetic mood that time but left with no choice, i hurriedly squeezed my maniac brains of its poetic juices even if there isn't any--that time and ever since..
i scanned some teacher's magazines hoping to stumble upon some works that would give me the slightest ideas..i also reread some harry potter books hoping that some installments may have included dumbledore giving harry some opinionated facts about father sun..but to my concluded disappointments--there wasn't any..
so, i freely let my mind drift to the sky and thought of anything about the sun that could be jotted down--there is a lot of course but phrasing it and making it sound as a poem is the difficult part..

after some time of thinking, i came at last to my latest masterpiece.

sun

your brightness as you rise offers warmth and laughter

not just for me but for everything else that matters

and the happiness doesn't end as you set,

rather, promises a better tomorrow as we rest.

sun, dear sun, you're one wonderful gift to everyone.

...its basically everything but art and poetic..lolz..
i wonder if my cousin passed it on...
i'm no good in writing poems and never dreamed of being a poet..i could be a novelist and a writer but never that stuff..

***************

---been here--crushed to pieces--but who says you would never be complete again..

"in every girl with a broken heart, there's always a boy with a glue gun"

--the bullshit(forgive my bad mouth)thing would be when someone still wants you to feel you're being a loser..
>>>and so to you!!!
you're the loser..you're still the damn affected..you can't even stand a profile view..i'm into someone's arms and yet you're still at his shadow..pity, he's not the type to be stalked at and you're not the type to be turned back to..i wish you the happiness..lolz!!Ü

**************

i'm doing a research paper on Philippine Alternative and Renewable Energy Laws..and i'm kinda having a hard time on it..since i've been out of school for months now and my present job doesn't tackle on energy, i couldn't think of anything to add to this..the search engines are also bit of conservative and don't give me exactly what i need..my friends are buzzing me at ym..

lotsa stuffs to finish..and almost time to bed..

lotsa love..

♥♥♥

silent rants

2008-07-28T05:42:00.000-05:00

...i don't feel like blogging right now-- i mean in words..
i just want to post something in here..

>>>to my fellows..

>>>to raveen

>>>and to you C. A. G.
i hope you'll get the nerves..

lotsa love♥♥♥

back to basics

2008-07-26T10:25:00.000-05:00

i tried to work on with my layout but sad to say i was unsuccessful--it was grossed..
i don't know how to download the skins.. i thought just like friendster, you'll just have to copy and paste it..but then again and again i was wrong..i failed and all the entries and the chu-chus i've put in their was lost..i almost panicked..good thing i was able to revert the template to classic..

and the best thing--
thanks a million to esther--
you're one hit of a friend..

i wish i've got Einstein's brains when it comes to html and java and the likes..i really envy those with great layouts..

but well, nothing beats classic and nothing is lovelier than being simple..

and why do i have to want something i am not bound to afford..

someday, im gonna learn that thing and i'm gonna have the best layout in the world..

enough said!!

p.s. i'm spending my night here at the bank.. gotta go..

lotsa luv!!

still in random

2008-07-26T02:30:00.000-05:00

it was nyzelle who started the fun..i woke up a little late this morning..though my mind was clattered with the idea that the office would be opening at 8 like regular days, i found it hard to wake up earlier..so when i woke up i found messages in my phone--from my fanatic(u knw who u are) and from nyz..we started that text parade during our college days--to briefly undrestand it--we're texting the whole group with just one create message..so it was long and it was fun..we updated ourselves with new and old goodies about us..it was quite relax with nyz because she was the only one without something to be busied about that particular moment--me on the other hand, busied myself with the bank's a.k.a office transactions, ella with her rationalization review(i hope i got that right) she with dave, angela still overwhelmed with her being a new registered nurse..and esther with her dreams(she sleeps at day coz she can't at night coz of work)..i wasn't able to join in the fun step by step but i had fun reading the messages..

i found it monsterous when i opened this account around 2pm this afternoon..my background shouted "bandwidth exceeded" at my face..my layout is so gross..i am the only one working with html of this account and im not and adept to it..blogger skins need to be downloaded and i have no definite time to search and download skins as i am busy and undecided right now..i envy some blogs..*sigh.. i am searching photobucket for some good backgrounds so if you happen to find my site messy, my apologies for that's the only one i can afford at the moment..

i'm still at the bank though we've closed early today..we need to keep the books updated because the head office's gonna check them this monday..

i was thinking of getting married--yeah i wanna get married just beacuse i am missing someone terribly..i know it isn't a good option to a solution but mind me, it's hard when you're million miles away..

it was only now that i remembered about the rumored intensity high(i forgot the exact measure) earthquake that was hearsayed to be predicted by some infamous chu-chu(i forgot him again)..and i am a maniac when it comes to happenings that spell death..hay, good thing i kept myself busied last july 18-predicted date--maybe i would have panicked the moment i woke up..

my chismis time is over..i need to go back to my job so i can go home early..
so see yah fanatics if i have any..
lotsa ♥♥♥♥♥

it paid-off..

2008-07-25T02:50:00.000-05:00

..though i'm not really a fanatic of medical courses and related stuffs and i never see myself wearing that all-clean, no-sin white uniform i am damn fuckin' proud of my friends who made it..
i mentioned at my previous blog about them..and i haven't made a mistake..

CONGRATZ GUYS!!!
PARTY TIME..

why such???

2008-07-23T04:14:00.000-05:00

i've read from a certain blog something about why parents sometimes don't wish their kids to grow up--the consequences they face when the kids turn out be the opposite of what they expect..and parents find it hard to forgive kids who faces that consequences...the disappointment factor is really on top list but come to think of it, almost in all cases, parents are always there for the support--that is the reason why most kids do not think first before entering such situation because they always knew that no matter how they plow life, they got family to back them up..--this is just my personal thought and no offense to those with dissimilar views--i'm not really an adept in life issues and no matter how hard i try to be a counseling kind of person most of my petty advices sucks..

people hurt me--though they are not aware of it..but whatever it is--whether aware or not--they hurt me--and that's a big personal issue..

i'm missing my friends and it deeply hurts me seeing them in their happy photos together..selfish me and reality sucks..long time ago i have been so decided that i will not pursue my degree but the reality that i am here stuck at my hometown which is very far from what i have been dreaming of wanted me to change mind though i know there is no remedy at all..--and amidst the negative thoughts i have about this present thing i am into right now, there is a little hope in me that everything will be all right and that i have made the right choice...--and that the thing i would die doing for now is to prove everyone especially my proud ego that this is the right thing..

my phone book doesn't include my so missed friends in college and high school--I've lost their numbers..i've been dying to text them or call them or whatever..i'm so eager to hear what's new with the school and with the powerhouse---

i don't wanna go home..coz it feels like home doesn't want me too or I'm just a paranoid voodoo doll..lolz..i wanna hurt someone..prick him with million needles or boil him alive--hahaha--lolz!i don't even know that certain someone i wanna kill..

i'm feeling out of range--and i don't wanna feel this way..
i hope i'd have a long time to catch up with him..
he's buying me a pair of shoes i love--and the thought of him buying that girly thing makes me crave for him more and more and most maybe..
but i am always hurting him and though i am controlling myself no to--i do--and it hurts me so..
and i am hoping against hopes and wishing against genies all the bad things i have done were not big matters for him..but that is impossible--though he's not the emotional and issue-full type of person, i know i had big mistakes..i am thinking of karma and i hope karma doesn't think of me--

i don't know if the june 2008 nursing results are out now but i wanna congratulate bumbee,gonggy and angel in advance..i have no doubt they'll make it..
and best luck to ella, rob,junel,rr,bashang,moses and all--i forgot the names and no issue they're not reading this anyway..
i hope someday they get to decide to build a hospital and own it...and me, free of charge of course..

--i'm really feeling like a lost doll today..i'm in random thoughts and it makes me sick..
hope i'll be normal tomorrow..

lotsa love♥♥♥

2008-07-16T06:54:00.000-05:00

>>my friend luken and his crazy pics..mizyah!!Ü

Kapag wala ang malupet na Boss!

Kapag tinawag ka ng malupet na Boss!

Habang nasa meeting!

Nasa training o seminar!

Coffee break sa baba!

Pag-uwi ng bahay galing opis!

Malapit na mag uwian !

Walang pasok may holiday bukas!

Kapag may inutos and malupet na Boss!

Kapag nalaman na hindi umabot ang report sa deadline *patay kay Boss!

Pagkatapos masabon ng malupet na Boss!

Pinag OT-y ka for 3hrs

Pinag OT-y ka buong gabi!

Matapos sabihin ng malupet na boss na puamsok ka sa christmas at new-year!

Wala kang salary increase this year!

Ugali ng malupet ng Boss habang nag-eexplain ka sa kanya!

Pinagreresign ka ng malupet na Boss!

Sagot sa iyo ng malupet na Boss matapos humingi ng isa pang pagkakataon!

Natanggap mo ang force resignation letter galing sa malupet na Boss!

Ang kinahantungan ng malupet na Boss! hehehe!!

--ibang level na talaga me..year ago i'm blaberring bout my teachers and yet now its BOSS na..hahaha--loving it..definitely miss schooling but this world challenges me..

--i find it quite amazing to know that there are also people out there who finds time to check me up in here..
i always thought no one cares--ive been posting my blogspot url at my shout out for months now..and yet no one really dared clicking it--that's what i know..the least i expect it--a friend would beep me and would say "oi nice baya to imo blogspot"--a comment as simple as that would mean stars and sunshine to me..

--to all who happens to stumble upon this simple refuge--thanks!!
i know my posts here depicts a boring life but still you happen to waste a bit of your precious time..
i do hope that next time you add a bit of time for a comment and maybe if you like make an account in here!!lolz..

been to iligan last weekend..feed up the burning desire of wanting hugs and kisses..--still i want more!!
--when will i have more???lolz..

loving my 1st valley bank family..
saved the supposed fare home..
amidst the negative hearsays, i'm feeling i belong..

*tired..

2008-07-11T07:57:00.000-05:00

...a thought just bumps me today..i decided to put in pics of some friends that captivates me..since this place has been my thoughts refuge i would also like to share photos that mean to me..
so from now on, my blog entries would start with a photo i specially and vainly choose...

>>this is sheena--though we haven't really had a chance to bond long and often--i find her simply cute and amazingly pretty..

--so much for the pics, i'll be in iligan tomorrow..going to see my sis--my old school and my friends..and of course--my boy!!
haven't been there for almost a month--lolz and i have a lot to catch up..

went up with my office mates--they went shopping for the duka bay event--it's going to be our bank's founder's day--sadly, i can't be able to join in..

saw my balikbayan couzin later today..happy!!it's been long..

i wont be able to blog in for a couple of days but im sure im gonna have lots to share when i blog again..

--went blog hopping again and the the entries are super amazing!!Über..

lotsa love♥♥♥

2008-07-09T07:24:00.000-05:00

...terrible..damn terrible..

silly chismis..stupid realities..

what happened?

you don't really get from people what you see in them..

pure pretense

annoying facades

careless mistakes..

--let's be responsible for our own actions-- a piece of adviceÜ

..feel like a princess..

2008-07-08T09:06:00.000-05:00

nothing crappy bout the title--still overwhelmed with saint-exupery's the little prince book though i've been reading it for the nth time..it's a childish-yet-mature book..lolz..
been doing my couzin's powerpoint presentation project..--just because i thought i'm an expert of this--i voluntarily suggested to make the project and to my dismay find myself annoyed and tired..it' been my second day raging photobucket and google for exact pictures i could fit in the presentation..the topic's boracay and the concept is to promote the spot--silly me for choosing the place i've never been in so far in my life--imagine the efforts i've put in.
currently listening to click five's time machine--my couzin's kind of music..i'm not into music mood today..so anything would do..
an excerpt from a comic book..

girl: pag nawala ba ako, mamimiss mo ako??

boy:(silently praying)lord, bigyan nyo po ako ng magandang maisasagot..

after a while..

boy: pag nawala ka, hahanapin kita..

naks..naks..

miss school--got a friendster comment from my college friend..miss iit--super miss the powerhouse..*sigh!!
job confusion--the idea that i'm into a job excites and freaks me..i am now a proud "ulipon sa capitalista" but the hearsays threat me..hayz, kailan ba ako naging confident..id better do good for a lasting impression---it's the best choice than looking for a job again..anyways, it was kuya nilo's bday bash--kuya nilo's the chief security of the bank im connected with..it wasn't my plan at first to be at the celebration but when i found out that i'd have an automatic deduction for his birthday(that's the company's rule) ..i decided to stay and eat my hearts out..hahaha..at least nakabawi ko sa deduction.
im happy but not super and i dont want to be super happy pud..hayz,sigh..

2008-07-07T09:01:00.000-05:00

...my bezz ella loves this song..didn't hear this actually but i trust her taste..quite unfortunate to note that jericho rosales is into not-so ideal reputation..

Beautiful In My Eyes By Jericho Rosales

You're my piece of mind, in this crazy world
You're every thing I've tried to find
Your love is a pearl
You're my Mona Lisa
You're my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We'll have our fell of tears
Our share of sight
My only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

And there are lines upon my face
From a life time of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last wine
We can laugh about how time really flies
We won't say goodbye
'Cause true love never dies
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

The passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes...

2008-07-01T07:11:00.000-05:00

it's ironic that i'm feeling strange in my own place..the homely scent of buuglandia is gone..and the familiarity of my so-called neighbors have evaporated as dew is gone at nine..
what bothers me most is that everyone seems to get shock seeing me around the bank premises..why??don't i have the right to stay at my place??silly people..and silly me for wasting my time drooling on their stupid reactions..

life is not all about change..sometimes, when you're so damn ready to face changes, you'll realize that what's hotta hotta in this material world are those little damn surprises..

though, it's pretty amazing to bump into changes every now and then--like your once-shy-and-almost-silent-friend-turns-into-a-bitchy-chick..or your once-witty-and-adorable-bummy-turns-into-a-smart-ass and all the likes, you can't help but tell yourself, it's the healthy thing for them and maybe that what makes the freakin' happy..
but of course when both changes and pretty surprises attacks you--you can't help it but feel stupid and coward..

i've been ready for changes--prepared myself for that new turn but when i got there, it was still pretty alarming..
no one knows what else is ahead for them..
the only thing's for sure--a lot of "no one knows" things are in store..

distance--though literally doesn't mean emptiness--it bothers me so hard...
torn between my strong will of living a responsible world and the idea of sticking to the person i'm bound to keep..
and even if being away from him hurts like hell and that my whole being shouts his soul, my mature thinking tells me that love can wait and love should be patient as i should be strong..naks!!

miss the place that has been my home for long..
and the people..
i'm used to being solid fan of my dear buug but iligan had carved in me a compassion and a devotion..

living in an almost new world..never sure of what will happen but confidence sparks surprises and respect begets respect..

i'm slowly turning myself into a woman most people doubt i could be..

ÜÜÜ

2008-06-20T04:29:00.000-05:00

...tired, stressed,bored,confused..
happy,contented,in bliss..
i'm having both of the worlds and it makes me lucky and in vain at the same time..

ironic???so ironic..
i'm not having the best of the world but things seem to fall in their places..
though i'm feeling a bit nauseatic for tomorrow's job evaluations, i can feel that i'm almost there..
i'm not used to waking up early and spending most of my time at the office but i better practice now...sigh*
i want to laugh myself out but there are certain things that keep me grounded..
--people that matters

i'm a super selfish bitch but hey, now i can't totally be happy if my friends aren't..dammit..
and the hard thing--you want to help but they won't allow you..
hypocrites..
slowly, they're killing me--of curiosity and deprivation..
i hope they'd have the guts and the trust..

no man is an island..

in-process

2008-06-18T06:49:00.000-05:00

...my blogspot's currently in- process..
i need to have a pretty header but i don't know how..senxa nlang muna..
busy pa din with job training..
til next tym..

♥♥♥lotsaluv♥♥♥

☺☻☺your lifetime friend☻☺☻

2008-06-13T06:20:00.000-05:00

...been out of cyber space lately..

...updating...updating...updating..

friends do mean a lot to me..i've been pampered with friends since time immemorial..and i guess i'm not gonna live life without them..who'd be of course..

and since im out of my friends' reach, i so damn miss the freaks..

most of them are not really familiar with this site but just in case..

to my forever and always RAVEEN

...we've really come to our responsible points, though i could live a lifetime laughing and talking with you girls, it is also a bit healthier for us to explore the world and the future..don't worry, nothing could make me richer than our ultimate friendship..

bezz, though we're far away from each other these past years, i am so glad that we remain with each other..you just don't know how much i appreciate it when you reach out and update me with all that's in you now..and though i am not so vocal with our friendship id like you to know that i pray for the best things for you♥♥♥

natz,she and nday..the dillemas that you onced faced never hinder us rather it made us stronger..

gel, rest..will always be here either ul be RN or not..hehehe

luvyah bezz,natz,day,she and gel...

to MSU batch 2004..

...the forever sharing batch..hope we could share and share..forevah..nyahaha!!

you're the institution that taught me most of my firsts..

and the hard times are just as cool as the good ones..

we dream a lot and i know they're bound to come true and i'm so eager to wait for that moment

i can't wait for that one crazy moment where we can brag our achievements, argue about petty matters and just laugh about it afterwards

to JPIA powerhouse..

guys, i learned to dream..i got inspired..so keep it up..

i am so damn proud of u!!♥♥♥

never did i meet persons so focused and so determined as u ol..

you helped me defeat the hostilities yet bestowed in me the wonders of college life..

to my street friends..

bmates, schoolmates,textmates..exes,suitors and passers by..though our friendship time doesn't spell forever, i'm glad you put up a rainbow in me..you maybe aren't there during my appaling times nonetheless i was bursting with bliss.. and though some of you were the reason of my once blurry and bleedy life, the lesson it fed me cannot pay off the said twinge..

and so im awfully glad that sometime in our lives we met and you all would never be forgotten..

to my co-trainees at 1st valley bank..

our personalities may be poles apart but the laughter binds us..and as we are about to end the sanctuary that holds us..may we be filled with the knowledge that should be imparted to us and of course the camaraderie that knotted our disparity..

and to my newest and hopefully lasting bestfriend..

bebee, you picked me up at my lowest and you supported me with all the things i have and wanted..you're a blessing and i am bound to keep you all my life even if it would make me the poorest..i have loved and been loved in the past yet no one made me feel as contented as as gleeful as now..

though sometimes i get fixated with other things, you never tried to help me through it..

thank you..you just don't know how much i appreciate and admire you..

i love you and i am so happy and proud i have you..

♥♥♥

rrrannddoommm..

2008-06-02T22:27:00.000-05:00

...i miss my phone and my phoney friends..hell yeah, my phone wasn't the best phone in the world..it was just a simple 1100..nyahaha..in short, it was a poor phone..no camera, no mp3 and all those high tech stuffs that people are dozing over..but it was MY PHONE!!and it was like no other for me..miss all the quotes and the chitchats,the forwarded messages,the arguments and the good stuffs..miss connecting with friends..
--i want a new phone!!nah, it sounds so selfish..i need a new phone!!
i hope mom gets the nerve to buy me a new one..the high tech one..nyahaha..i'm not really a material kind of girl but hightech phones are fad..

..been obligated to enrol my sis while she's home enjoying her remaining summer..bought a 250 ml pyrex beaker for her clearance purposes and left her prf at the controller's office..let her do the rest of the job..bad ate!!

..got a petty argument with bebee last night..i so thought last night would end our affair..good thing we both came to our senses..

...will be in cdo this wednesday or thursday..hopefully!!got to follow up my job application..hoping against all hopes i'd get the job..

more prayers and less foods--ultimate goal in life!!
lotsa love!!
♥♥♥♥♥

shoutouts!

2008-06-01T01:38:00.000-05:00

...i updated my friendster account and visited some of my friends' pages..
--quiet curious with the shoutouts...
for random samples..take a good look..

my friends and their shoutouts!!!

venus(my sister)--"dying is only one thing to be sad over..living unhappily is something else"

ella(my bezzy)--"i'm going to smile like nothing's wrong, talk like evrything's perfect, act like it's all a dream, & pretend it's not hurting me..."

nday esther--"just listen..don't bother believing:]]"

nyzelle--"i am happy. i am with someone who makes me happy. i am hoping for the best but expecting the worst. i had been thru a lot and if what i am experiencing right now would turn out bad, it would suck, sure...but it wouldn't be anything new."

ate joycelle gen--"Affection is desirable...Money is absolutely indispensable..."

ate ritz--"destiny belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams and have the courage to pursue it. don't stop when u are tired. stop when u r done."

celeste--"the best way to survive is to simplify.."

hmmmm...couldn't really comprehend if those certain shoutouts mirror their present emotions..
hope so and hope so not!!

BISDAK RULES♥♥♥

2008-05-29T06:03:00.000-05:00

yahoo!!!i am now an official member of the bisdak planet..
and i'm so freakin proud!!!
daghan kaaung salamat sa tanan nga ninggreet sa ako...
much thanks to twinks kay sa iyang page nako nadiscover ang bisdak planet..
muuch love to all bisaya!!!
we ROCK n RULE!!!

cagayan blues..Ü

2008-05-22T06:52:00.001-05:00

...i'm in see-dee-oh (that's cagayan de oro city in OA terms) now..and probably i'll be here for a week or moreÜ
i'll be attending a fiesta--so that means a whole lotsa P-A-K-A-L-S!!(foods in english)yumyum..i'll forget my diet plans for the mean time..i've been planning diet for years now and i'm too lazy to pursue it..huhuhu..i really don't have that strict discipline..

got a visit from my best friend E-L-L-A and close buddies Junel and Gelrob..they're my favorite friends on earth..never a dull moment with them..

rob♥mehhh♥ella♥ meh♪♪♪ella with ate bing☺♥jonah

robb☻meh junel♥ella

the culprit-- rob with his first junel--popping from me--just me♥♥♥
magic pops-- pop... doypack to the mouth

☺☺☺hoping for a great vacation here...
lotsa love♥♥♥

iligan blues Ü

2008-05-16T02:52:00.000-05:00

...♥back in the city of waterfalls..had a lot to catch up to and had a lot to miss leaving province..ö
my college classmates are so busy asking me how i've done with my supposed to be review..i hate to lie but if i'd say i'm not gonna take that crappy qualifying exam and just be okay with my bachelor in accounting technology, they'd be hysteric and they would all pissed me with their petty advices about becoming a CPA..ü
like dah..never dream of it..just enrolled because i was left with no choice..and coz i've been happy with their company, i decided to stay until that 4th year graduation..☺ but another year would be another side of the story..i've had enough of that FS and audit and taxes and law..god help me..

i'm in job hunting now..passed an application letter to a certain bank, took a Ross test▬super challenging but i guess i made it well..the bank will just call me if ever but i personally doubt it because i haven't handed on my transcript of records..it's still not released from school..☺

☼boring summer..never been to beach (hope our plan for beach tomorrow would pursue)
♥lotsa food trips☻
♥lotsa music trip♫

♥♥♥will meet bebee's parents this 20th..it would be for the second time but i still have that goosebumps☻plus i'm super fat now..kidding, i'm overreacting..i just got a big tummy..nope, im not preggy..i just eat a lot and don't exercise..

tomorrow would be baby kenzo's christening..☻sadly i couldn't be able to attend though i'm one of the ninangs..i am so a wrong-timing person..i wasn't able to attend bojie's christening also..
Ügood thing i was there during nyzelle and nicoy's civil wedding ceremony..

...my friends are marrying and having babies already..happy and afraid for them at the same time and jealous most of the time..but nah..i know i shouldn't rush time..i want to be the best person when i get there..ready to face my future husband and my babies☺☻☺☻lotsa laughsÜ

...i'm getting nowhereö..
i hope i could have some productive stuffs for the remaining days of my boring summer..
i started with beads last night..i finished up a small rosary...and there's a lot coming..

♥♥♥

a lot about L..

2008-05-16T02:11:00.000-05:00

Got tagged by Mimai :)

Name ten things that start with the letter L.
1. Love – the greatest emotion daw!!nyahahaha..

2. Lalaki – my best friend's only problem..*wink!it's paranoidal (imadethisword) when you have everything but a lovelife.. :)

3. Laptop – i'm dying to have one..kainis ang bulky pc..and since im out of the hauz i couldn't bring it out with me pa...

4. LIFE – living it out..ang saya saya...

5. Lipshiner – i want a new one..i still have one from sansan..it tastes good but the color's ORANGE..d ko feel..:(

6. Lobo – ganda..love papa p...

7. Lollipop... – it's been months i haven't had one..love to have from chupachups.. :))

8. Leslie's Clover chips – my midnight snack last night..along with nescafe's creamy vanilla..not a perfect combination though..

9. Losing weight – i so need it..help mehhh

10. Lil Kenzo's binyag – tomorrow na..im one of the ninang but sad to say i cant be there..huhuh Ü

I’m tagging mheemz, vanessita, twinks,tiborsho.. For the tagged, please name ten things starting with letter V.. so that ul have a hard time..hehehe..kidding... And congratulate me for making an effort to actually tag people. :]

2008-05-05T01:58:00.000-05:00

...love it!

my name..

2008-05-04T00:03:00.000-05:00

What Vanessa Means

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.

You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.

Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

yayks..im so hyper daw..it's partly true but not namn always nohh..
im most of the time a couch potato and i love being a couch potato..hassle-free; worry-free..

im not very confident but im not also a sly one..
im a certified mid lister..aaaaccckkkk..

parang hindi talaga ako ito---
these attitudes goes out to vanessas that are most often than not antagonists sa movies and teleseryes..yung madalas ay super maldita at mang-aagaw pa ha..
that's why i partly hate my name--it sounds so villain..
pero okay na rin..its not the name naman that matters..its what inside that counts..*wink

down memory lane--

2008-05-01T01:30:00.000-05:00

...i updated my multiply account a while ago..i uploaded up my not so long ago pictures and tried to recap events connecting them..
i had this picture moments with my favorite buddy--my accounting classmate and my most often than not gimmik company--luken!

this pictures was taken after we took our grades in cost accounting and found out that we are going to take a removal exam..pity us..but our pics didn't even hinted we failed..hahahah

my first ever tagged..

2008-04-30T03:04:00.000-05:00

i got tagged by vannesita ( tenchu a lot)

Directions: List down 10 things that recently made you happy then tag other ten people to spread the love.

1. yesterday's my birthday
--i turned 21 yesterday..i posted the details a while ago..

2. beauty--our new askal puppy..
--she is named after pbb teen housemate beauty from dumaguete..she's cute and super makulit..my lolo bathe her everyday..she loves to play with anyone's left foot..yeah she doesnt care about the right one..

3. blogging
--im new here..just started this month..im so loving it that i post more than once a day..hahaha..
baka kasi i may not be able to post if i got that wish job na..and since im the one na nakatoka sa aming cafe, i should be making sulit it..

4. bebee
--my longest love interest and hopefully forever na..hahahaha..

5. crazy for this girl by evan and jaron
--heard it just a moment ago..it's a music from a certain blog..i used to so love this song and forgot about it..hahaha..its surprising to hear it again..

6. my new waterproof mascara
--a birthday gift from ella..mascara is really one of my must-have essentials and its cool to have a new one..

7. the grim adventures of billy and mandy
--weeknights at cartoon network..funny cartoons..you cant help but laugh

8. friends
--lotsa love from friends..my highschool friends are super..though we seldom see eaxh other because we school in different places we never fail to keep in touch..

9. a new job
--its not sure yet but i texted maam molina early this morning and she said il try bring my application letter..i hope il get it..i helped them naman a lot of ways..and i know the office needs me badly..wink*

10. vannesita
--i really dont have personal friends here in blogger but in the same way its not hard making friends and im so glad i hop by vannesita..super friendly..a lot has managed to visit this site and left a little chitchat but she left me a comment--my first ever and she tagged me..its more than enough..
i do hope shed read this so that she'll know she's truly appreciated..
lotsa love to vannesita!!!

im tagging..
twinks
juliet
sweetiepie
mica
kate
tiborsho
vicky
mheems
and others...

salamat...

2008-04-30T02:40:00.000-05:00

...sa lahat ng ng greet sa burtday ko..
a lot of thanks..cge..trillion of thank youssss...
those who greeted in advance--kasi daw baka wala sila load on my day..
salamat kahit kawawa kayo kasi wala kau load..hahaha
pity ur not as lucky as i am..ive been texting unlimited globe-to-globe kahit alang load..
it's going to be 2 months in may 11 nah..salamat globe--advance gift yon..
sa nggreet sa friendster-- salamat din..

to my 4 special bisitas--

ella--for the waterproof mascara ( ive been craving for a new one since i left mine in iligan..) and for the individual blue for her cologne spray--

natz-- for the purple foot socks (surprise kaau!)

robb-- for the laughs and time

glenpaul --for the ride..

robert and allan-- for the birthday calls and to the rest of the powerhouse..

and to those who managed to greet late..at least nkahabol pa..

salamat! salamat! salamat!

happy birthday to meh..

2008-04-30T01:12:00.000-05:00

Make your own Glitter Graphics

i turned 21 yesterday..
and i thought it was the happiest birthday i ever had..
there was no big celebration..im not a fan of parties..
i only had four visitors..my special and bestest friends..
but we had fun..the laughters were endless..
the talks were restless..

i feel so blessed..
i just love life..
ive got lotsa wishes and im so dying to see them come true..
i have the best of life..
hope there's a lot more in store for mehh..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
LOTSA LOVE...